4:34PM

today is a Sunday.

i am not out to the mall or anything.

i am here in a small cosy room with 3 of my friends.

aiming for the best.

doing the best. i think.

to be the best? we really hope so.

I HOPE SO!

i am broke. i have nothing.

no money no knowledge.

am i human??

home.

i want to go home.

to run away?

no, i need vacation.

haven't been on vacation since college.

and just now i was just browsing through my friend's pictures with her guy.

i like it :) they are so loving and natural.

i even browsed through my friend's new born baby picture :)

and then i thought of something.

something that everybody wants.

can we? be together and have a happy family?

can we ? be as natural as them???

why aren't we?

because.

we all knows. no need to explain. it's the same old thing again and again.

how i hate to repeat it.

to have a unforgettable wedding.

to have a happily ever after with you.

i really hope so.

to pass my exams with no re-sit and repeats.

God i really need you with me.

-To fly with colours-

5 Months

Ya udah 5 bulan si~

:)

i can't believe we actually make it this far. 5 moths is long. i think.

despite all the obstacles.

all the i don't know how to describe.

but it's sad that we can't be near though. never ever celebrated together.

why can't we just be close.

for 1 day. 24 hours. 1440minutes. 86400seconds.

why can't we??

my super number 1.

:)

here i am and there you are.

i am here, stressed out with assignments and all.

how i hope that you are beside me. with a cup of hot milo.

and i am the luckiest girl alive :)

however that's not going to happen.

i might as well. dream.

happy to be your girl ;)

-can we ?-

Complication

people say friendship is suppose to be love.

but i don't really see it in real life.

i mean i can't deny that certain things that i see around me is totally the opposite with what i have heard.

i like to day dream.

yes. a day dreamer indeed.

i am not a hypocrite.

once i like something i will, with all my might like it.

when i hate something. i will try to find ways to not hate it but still hate it.

college life isn't complete with good friends and classmates.

they are what makes me want to go to class. despite the lecturers.

but things are not that simple anymore.

complicated.

i am not in the situation either are you.

posting something like that makes us look bad in front of the whole world

because it's facebook.

something between 2 person should be settle within the area.

to read not to read.

to criticise or to praise up to you.

i am solo.

i write, i breath, i eat.

i have the rights.

to object is your business.

words must be chosen carefully, to object the truth.

when white is always pure

and black is always trying to prove that nothing can be darker than it.

and we always know who's the truth.

to pray and to hope. things like this would stop.

friends. i really do mean what i say.

you action is driving me insane.

and yesterday i realised i need you more than i expected.

-stop the guns, stop the shooting. STOP THE WAR.-

July

time sometimes flies

and sometimes creeps itself towards us.

and sorry to say we seldom pay attention to it.

it's July already.

2 more months and i will finish this sem! :)

to go home.

home. why it dosen't sound as exciting as before?

when i am home. and all is in a mess.

without you and with you.

obstacles.

where should we go??

or are we ever gonna meet???

i just can't stop thinking of it.

i miss you i really do.

so badly that words can't even describe.

this thing between us is not just between us anymore.

it affects others too.

there are things that i dare not tell you.

because i want our relationship to be something good and happy and blessed by everyone.

not just you coming like a criminal hiding from police.

what should i say?

finding for conclusion.

-i want our happily ever after too-