2012

Ohhh yeeaaaahhh!!

Damn that was a good movie J

Love it very much! It’s so real.. till the extend that I cried so hard..

Know why, cuz I was thinking.. what if.. what if the mayans were correct?

What if all of these are a warning to us? What should I do??

I am going to lose my family..

I wasn’t even thinking about myself.. In fact if I got the free ticket to get on the ark I would give it up for my family..

Life Let God alone takes my life.

After watching this movie.. everything seems so small to me. I mean

Humans are so weak~ and nature is strong!! God Is great~

All the fame and fortune are nothing to me. Like always :P but I realized that i love no one more than my family. And this is the first time that I ever had this kind of feeling.

I would always think of the person I had a crush on or the one I like when I watch movies.. trying to imagine what if that really happen to me and him~ but never my family.

This time, it’s different!

I only think of my family and saving them. I would sacrifice just for them~ I am not saying that I am some kind of heroin but that’s just my feeling~

I mean.. guys think hard what if all of this really happen??? What should we do??

Any ideas???

When that time comes we will see how desperate, selfish and cruel humans can be!

Just like in the movie~

I don’t really think 2012 is just something to scare us..

I think it’s 50/50 hahahaha

But be prepared cuz all of us learn about the end of days in our religion. And it’s gonna come one day.

Just be prepared.

Popularity?

i know i know..
my blog is getting popularrr!!!! :D

(as if it is)
and i know A LOT of people want me to write about them in my pr i am precious blog.
but some of the people out there are so thick face that they tought that i am writing about them
hahahahahahaha

yeah i know that's funny! i cant belive there are such peolpe out there.
i just want to declare that
i only write about the people that i care and love in my blog!

sorry for thoes out there that i never mention you name in my blog.
you are not important to me at all~

GET OUT OF MY LIFE YOU DEMON~!

Pagi indah 22 November

today is a happy day!!! :)

know why?? cuz i m at JB.. ohh yeah ahhhaaa!! not only that! i m with my beloved family :)

damn 18 years of life.. i just realised how much i actually love them..
i mean ont only my parents and sisters but also my beloved cousins.. huuuu

i really enjoyed my day~
u know~

without her.. with out the smell.. without them.. without him~

my world is just like how it used to be :) wuuuuuuuuu~

i love it :)

Hujan Petang November 18

hari ini hari yang tak brape nak indah~

aku bangun awal.. kelas bermula pada pukul 9.30am

ku duduk di tempat yang biasa dengan orang yang sama
tengok cikgu yang sama...

tapi ku tetap tidak faham apa yang igin belia sampaikan ;(

aku sakit hati.. aku rasa seperti aku telah menghampakan ibu bapa aku~
walau aku selalu... tetapi, aku ingin berubah~
aku betul-betul harap aku dapat faham apa yang cikgu ajar selepas menulis blog..
tetapi, itu tidak akan terjadi..

aku selalu dalam dunia khayalan ku~
memikirkan orang itu~

entah la.. aku pun bingung~ mengapa aku selalu menunggu call dia, sms dia
aku suka sangat bila dia menghantar sms. Lagi suka bila dia call~
malam itu aku memang tidur nyenyak~

adakah bodo untuk menunggu sesuatu yang aku tidak akan dapat?
aku faham sangat, dia cuma menganggap aku sebagai kawan cina pertama dia..
tetapi aku telah terlanjur bila aku nampak dia untuk kali pertama..
aku jatuh lagi dalam selepas mengenali dirinya..

betul, awk memang tasik yang tenang~ walau aku pandai berenang, tetapi aku tetap tenggelam~

inspirasi memang banya.. semasa hujan dan semasa rooamte bodo bangang aku tidak ada dalam bilik~

tenang~ kedenganran bunyi titisan hujan di tepi tingkap~ muka awk pula muncul~
apa harus ku buat???

-senyuman ku.. khas untuk F- :)

Mengejar

apakah yang aku mengejar selama ini??

entah laa~ aku pun tak tahu~

tapi yang aku tahu.. aku sering mengejar kenangan~
kenangan yang manis, pahit dan kadang-kadang gila :)

tapi.. aku masih tidak sedar~ betapa kerap, betapa gigih, betapa cepat ku lari untuk mengejar kenangan.. ia bagai mengejar kekosongan..
kenangan yang telah berlalu tidak akan kembali~

kenapa??
kenapa ku msih degil untuk menerima kenyataan??

ku amat merindui perassan semasa berada di sekolah SULTAN SULAIMAN..
ku rindu kawan-kawan ku, cikgu kesayangan ku~
keadaan sekolah ku~ baju pengawas ku~
semasa kita membincangkan sesuatu
semasa ku dimarah oleh mak ku kerana tidak mendengar nasihat beta :P

kamo yang pernah ku jatuh cinta~
kamo yang pernah ku benci~
kamo yang membuat ku gembira dan sedih~

seandianya kau ada disini dengan ku~
mungkin ku tak sendiri
bayangan mu yang selalu menemaniku hiasi malam sepi ku~ :(

ku ingn kembali ke saat kita ketawa.. ku tidak akan mengulangi kesalahan ku~
ku ingin sangat melarikan diri... kenapa harus ku berada dalam ini??

alangkah baik kalu kamo berada di sisi aku.. sentiasa menemani ku walau dalam apa-apa keadaan.
perasaan sayu, dan sedih selalu menghatui aku.. pada malam yang sunyi~

is there something wrong with me??

i think there's something wrong with me..

ermm ok i got to be honest.. i am kinda.. ermmm
hehehe

crazy~ hahahaha
no i mean.. i can like tons TONS of guys at a time.. lol

the reason i do this is because.. i don't wanna hurt myself anymore..
like i used to be :(

erm i really admire this particullar guy in class..
he's smart(scholarship holder :)
and he got the look.. lol
but kinda skinny too =.=lll

the problem is.. i don't like him as much as i crazily love my super no.1
i guess it's just admire..
i wonder.. why am i feeling sad cuz i just got this feeling that one of my friend likes him~

i am truely happy for her.. but i just dont understand.. why am i feeling sad??
i mean i just ADMIRE him right??

the one i love is my super no.1...
hmmm
i really think that i m crazy sometimes.. i hate myself for being so~!

what's wrong with me??
:(

but that's just my feeling.. maybe the one my friend likes is not him..
:D
but u know.. that kind of feeling.. it's just killing me!
shit i shoudn't have read her blog!
stupid me! :(

p/s i love you super no.1 :)
always do.. always have even you don't realise :)

The Secret

Now that i have know that secret..
i have to apply it...

Thing positive babeh!!!

Good thoughts attract good things..

I AM THE MASTER OF MY THOUGHTS :D

oohhhh yeahhh ahhhaaa~ :)

things around me~

things around me~

why must u leave me hangging here??
when will i get the answer??

or there's no answer to my question??

how many more stupid relationships to let me stop hitting my own head~
to make me realised that i only like YOU!
the only you!!!

how many more times should we talk like friends and pretend that i never like you~
how long can i handdle this??

what's gonna be when i found out that u have found your the other half??
how am i gonna face u??

is this gonna affect our 'friendship'??

i dont know~
but all i know that u are all that i m thinking of everyday~~
it's all about you, your face, your smile in my head!
i m crazyyyyyyy!!!!!

i dont want them!
i want you!!!!!!

goshhhh~
:(

that ass hole making my life worse~
what is this all about??
god playing pranks on me?

i guess so~

love

Love.. what is love??

i was so mad at myself.. for choosing that topic to talk about~

i really don't know why though~

i cant rmmber a thing when i went out there..


i guess you really took a part of me when left~

seriously~
:(

hmmmmm love~

love love love

i m love drunk~~~
i guess u prefer the old than new~ :)

it's ok! i am ok! we are ok!!!
happy everyday!! :D

Today

Today~
i just wanna talk about my day..

it's juat another ordinary day..
going to lectures and tutorials..

despite the face that i forgot to bring my wallet and i woke up really late..
i have class at 10.30am but i woke up 10.10.. wooow!

not bad..

ok i'll just jump to the main point..

i just can believe he did this to us..
i mean ok we r friends.. and i really do treat him as my friend but what's wrong when i wanna borrow his book to phtostate???

i mean i know that the book i expansive but.. hey we r friends and.

erhhh i was like speechless..
it's ok though.. and now we know how's he like..
the real him..

that's all.. i will still treat him as my friend.. but keep some distance..
to protect myself.. huuuuuuu..

i'm leaving on an aeroplane

hey guys..
i m going back to KL tomorrow morning..

probabbly will reach about 10am.. i guess not sure..

DAMN i sure have fun this 3 weeks! ;)
ate tons of fruits and healthy food.. i even went to the place i miss the most :) THE BEACH!
awwwww i love the sound of the wave......

hmmmm i m gonna miss it all.. and i m also vry excited to go back cuz i m taking a flight!
the best thing is i m ALONE! lol

i just have to get used to it....
guys just wish me luck in everthing~
and i mean it! WISH ME LUCK!

i really hope that i dont fail any of my exams.. hmmmmm

ok what ever.. got to go~

ILYSM! :D
i really do!

Tanpa

Tanpa kamu aku tido tak lena
makan tak knyang
mandi tak basah
kentut tak bau
isap rokok xkau asap
manis tak rse manis
pahit tak rase pahit
msam xrse msam
msin rase manis

hitam mcm putih
putih pulak jadi pink~~~

tngok ape yg tjdi pda sy tanpa kamu???????

hahahahahahahahahaha

it's just for fun~ ;)

ILYSM! heeeeeeeee

October

This is the 1st day of the month.. ;)
obviously..

and 4 more days and i m gonna go back to kl..
a place that i love and hate..

I HATE YOU! and i LOVE YOU!
=.=lll

i dont know what am i crapping about but i hope thoes who undestands me undestand.. haha
and i am also a liitle bit closer to him ;)

u know u is where he should be now and i m going to be where i should be..

hope to meet him.. damn i dint get to meet him when we were in Kt.. that sucks~
i guess he's bz with his friends and me with mine..

what ever it's no big deal~
cant wait to go see my lovely friends.. and cant wait to face anything that i should be facing.. hope god's with me.. Amen..