BERSIH

7092011

Why so unfair?

where are all your sanity?

I thought this is a democratic country.

Where are the democracy?

The video above is about an old lady.

ex government servant.

she went to join the yellows alone.

took a bus. without knowing where and when. she went. alone.

stopped by police. Questioned her.

But she still stand tall on her believe.

What she wants is Justice and Peace.

What she wants is for the younger generations.

why can't they understand? Why don't they listen?

I feel useless.

Why didn't i stood on my foot? when something small blocked my way, i ran and hide.

This old lady. Did not hide. She was attacked by tear booms and chemical water.

i have nothing to say to defend myself. She is the lady of liberty.

SHAME of you PRIME MINISTER and all the EVIL people out there!

Go Burn in HELL

you compare.

-we hate politics-

Paradise

Define paradise.

with you. it's always so perfect.

i hope it never ends.

teenage dream?

you are more than that.

you are the best thing i ever have.

words just can't describe the bond between us.

people will not understand.

maybe they think it's crap.

they are too foolish and shallow to understand.

you are one in a million and one of a kind.

i begin to doubt my sanity without you with me again.

when will be the next bonding?

i guess it will always be an unknown.

I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that way
I watch the sunlight dance across your face and I've
Never been this swept away

All my thoughts just seem to settle on the breeze
When I'm lying wrapped up in your arms
The whole world just fades away
The only thing I hear
Is the beating of your heart

'Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
Suddenly I'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe

In a way I know my heart is waking up

As all the walls come tumbling down
I'm closer than I've ever felt before
And I know
And you know
There's no need for words right now

'Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
Suddenly I'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe

Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe

I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that way

-I love it when you love me-

Most guys are JERKS

I had a bad day today!

i am not sure when but i am full of negativity!

i cant smile.

i cant think of any happy stuff!

My thoughts are all about cursing words my mouth cant stop cursing!

God i need you right now.

and my mission is to give more love to this world!

i fail! again.

i know i did it 4 times but is this karma?

or should i even believe in it?

Well, back to the point! i find that most guys are Jerks!

they silently steals a girl's heart.
play with it
and lastly RIP IT into pieces!

What the hell are they thinking?!

i guess they just LOVE to hurt other people's feeling.

fuckers out there are you born to hurt? to destroy? please go to hell.

So girls out there!

watch out! your prince charming will come sooner than you think!

so just be patient, wait and most importantly PRAY!

no matter what religion you are i believe that PRAYING is the best solution for EVERYTHING!

calm yourself and let God handle every unknown every uncertainty commit yourself to him and you will have a good life. Just TRUST him.

-i am going crazy without you with me-

My reflection

I made a video yesterday. Edited.

but after replaying again and again.

i became sick of myself!

I was so fake! seriously!

looks like a bitch.

i means it's terrible! i can't bear to watch it anymore. So. i deleted it.

I am a blogger. not a Vlogger :)

i love writing more. don't need to put up any fake accent or any mask.

just to hide who i am.

well, it's father's day today~!

sent Boris a simple text. and made his day. I guess.

I just want to make him proud.

but i don't know how.

i will just continue to be me.

because i am his daughter. not some bitch.

Boris this song is for you :)

i missed watching cartoons with you.

-lazy day-

Forgiveness

There's whole lot of drama going on this few days.

i just can't describe my feelings using words.

you can't understand. but i really do care. i really do want to try!

你最近不说话

怎么了，为什么
是不是有什么事啊
让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱
有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
你最近不说话
怎么了，为什么
是不是有什么事讓你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱
有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
爱我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

-we cant live without each other, yet..-

Sex equals to Love?

Question of the day!

Sex = Love??

youngsters now a days.

they got a little mixed up.

Love and Lust.

"hey look at that girl. dang~! her bobs and bouncing. I think i am in love." someone once said.

so ladies and gentlemen. boys and girls what do you think?

is he in LOVE or in LUST?

I heard gossips about a guy in my college.

he's decent looking but. I can't believe what he did.

LOL it's nothing serious. really.

In fact i am the one who is always judging the book by its cover.

Is he trading love for sex?

only god knows.

but. think about it. How many of the young girls and boys are still virgin below the age of 18?

how may single, per-mature, uneducated Mums out there??

how may rape cases annually in Malaysia?

I mean the ACTUAL amount.

Teenagers lack sex education.

is it because of something called religion pulling them backwards?

Don't waste unnecessary money and time on county development. (eg: Nuclear plant)

since when Malaysia need nuclear energy to generate power supply?

didn't we learn anything from the earth quake, tsunami, and nuclear plant failure in Japan?

didn't we know that radiation kills silently?

Care more about the younger generations.

The future is the reflection of the quality of education that you are giving them today.

I am proud of Bahasa Malaysia but, please don't be a fool by being bold.

English is still the main language to communicate internationally.

Switching and switching the language makes it worse.

STOP CORRUPTION!!!

STOP BEING UNFAIR

Why can't you government people think straight?

you are all blinded by money that can't be carry forward when you meet you creator.

and all of you crooks will have to answer HIM.

go to hell and burn.

-i want love-

The bird

I saw a bird last night.

just outside my room.

I think it was hurt or something.

It couldn't fly.

no matter how hard it try.

i wished i could help.

but i did nothing but cry.

just standing there looking.

waiting for time to consume it.

waiting for it to die.

it's really sad to see a creature die slowly.

what have it done wrong to deserve such pain and punishment?

poor little bird.

no matter where you are.

R.I.P

the rain taps on my window-pain

is the sky crying for you little bird?

or is it sad because i am useless,

did nothing to help you.

he said" he'd help the bird if he were here."

i know he will.

I am sorry.

so sorry.

that i did nothing but cry.

-short life of a little bird-

I am BACK

I am back for good. I guess.

I know I've had some mental break down recently.

Just so you know. This blog meant a lot to me. it's my way of telling my stories.

despite that, I find that i am attached to it.

and when she commented my blog.

i couldn't accept it.

and i gave up.

that's what i always do.

GIVE UP.

Honestly i missed writing.

Not that i can't live without it, but. i hate to block any inspirations.

i can't write as fast as before.

i struggled just to make up sentences.

I wasn't like that.

I know stuffs that i write may not suit everyone.

and i can't force people to like me.

So, i decided i pick up writing again.

Thanks to all my friends that gave me support.

someone once told me that" Even i don't understand your writing, but i enjoyed reading them.."

i know it doesn't make any sense.

makes him look more adorable and lovable.

Thank You :)

I got myself a Holga 135BC

I really wish that i can express myself through LOMO.

will post the pictures after finishing my 1st roll of negative.

Thanks again. For singing this to me.

Miss You to the MAX!!

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are

And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful

And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

-She hated it because she thought that she would lose me, i tell her. she wont be, because she is my guardian angle-

Frustrated

Yeah so what if today's 23rd!

it's another usual boring and useless day!

and yeah

you all don't need to suffer with my blog and my work anymore because i ain't FUCKING write anymore!

thanks to my MUM!

she is so encouraging!

So i quit~!

i don't have the talent either!

this is going to be my last FUCKING post!

so bear with it!

FUCKERS!!

-you asked for what you are facing! it's your fault not mine~!!-

i wonder do you ever really understand and apply the quotes that you post?!

or are you just showing...

This is suitable

This is an old song i know.

but the lyrics got stuck in my head this morning and.

i think it's kinda talking about us. :)

Closed off from love, I didn't need the pain

Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain

Time starts to pass, before you know it you're frozen

But something happened for the very first time with you

My heart melted to the ground, found something true

And everyone's looking 'round, thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud

Their piercing sounds fill my ears, try to fill me with doubt

Yet I know that the goal is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace

And in this world of loneliness I see your face

Yet everyone around me thinks that I'm going crazy

Maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

And it's draining all of me

Oh, they find it hard to believe

I'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see

I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

Tell me HOW?

OK I've been reading Tons of blogs from other blogger in the world.

and some of them are my friends.

I just don't understand why isn't anyone reading mine?

I mean i don't force you to read. but

how can they get HUNDREDS of followers and I have like 2?

honestly i really would like my blog to be read. to be appreciated.

I've been blogging for 2, 3 year i think. i know it's not long but..

You know what i mean.

Who doesn't what their work to be notice?

I admit that i write things that people don't quite understand.

i prefer to follow my style.

I know i lack pictures and colors in my blog but it's not the pictures and the colors that i want you to notice.

I want you to read.

to feel and understand every word.

So if you guys have any suggestions to improve the "traffic" of my blog

can you please kindly comment and tell me how?

Thanks :)

I was thinking of making a video.

like a Vlog.

but i don't know whether is it appropriate since...

you know.. no body bother to read my blog.

would that be even bother to watch my videos?

But. i was just thinking about it.

I guess that i am always an out cast.

Please don't make me feel that i don't belong

and he is the only one i can hang on to.

The distance between me and God is.

getting really far.

Please pull me back closer.

I need it.

It's funny when i re-read the post that i posted.

i was laughing alone.

I really do wonder what others think of my post though.

and i notice that he will be in almost every single post.

:)

Hey, i really do LOVE him.

it's not going to change. what ever you said.

or what ever anyone says.

Good Luck to you my Dear.

You can do it. :)

I will be here for you as you always did when i needed you.

-Miss you very much-

Laskar Pelangi

This is the theme song for the movie :)

It's a story about 10 kids from a very poor place in Indonesia call Belintong. it's about how they fight for the rights to get education and about their childhood. i cried and laugh along. i really wish to watch the movie. i got so touch because this story is real, true. written by Andera Hitara. it's a very good book although it's in BM but try to read :) you would love it.

and there's a song for this movie by Nijid- laskar pelangi

gave me a lot of inspirations.

i really want to pour everything out. my emotions but sadly i just couldn't think of a word now. hmmm just go get one! :) haha that's all i can say~

I guess everyone knows about the Haiti earthquake and the condition of the victims now.

People lets pray from them. What ever religion you r what ever race you r. just pray~

it's not the time to fight about religion or what race we are.

I always thought that we are one. What about SATU MALAYSIA?

what's the purpose of national day??

what's the purpose of the late prime minister Tunku Abdul Rahman that fought for us?

what? tell me!

answer me!

just because of that WORD.

that WORD is just a WORD!

For God's sake.

look! LOOK around us.

Things are happening, people are suffering!

what are we doing here??

FIGHTING?? because of a WORD?? GOD!!! what's WRONG with us??

Yeah, people keep talking about the END OF THE WORLD that is said to end on FRIDAY. but shouldn't we help each other now? since the world is said to be "ending".

Shouldn't we stick together like a family, we are the same HOMO SAPIENS!

a small blogger like me wont do any change, i know. but i really hope i can do something to change, to be better.

politics is not my stuff cuz i know it's dark and dirty.

my English is not as powerful as others.

I am just an ordinary college student that can't even spell right.

what can i do?

just an ordinary blogger.

-ordinary day-

This is where i belong

When was the last time i updated my blog.

Years???

LOL!

i was busy preparing for my final examinations.

*as if i am.

Ok i admit.

i was lazy. AND with the freaking connection i don't think i have the mood to even write.

Why am i writing today?

Because i am HOME :)

finally.

nothing much to write. really.

-wish that you were here-