what's in it for me?

hmm..

11/2 12:34am

yesterday was a fucking pissed off day!

i did something wrong, booking flight tickets.

the whole house's like quarreling about it.

especially my dad.

yeah i m useless.

but don't forget i m still your daughter.. for gods sake u made me!

hmmm

no really in the mood.

i m depress.

i feel lonely

and useless in this world.

so i see failure in the world.

nothing good is in for me i guess.

all i ever wanted.

i don't think i can get.

just because i did it?

i mean.. everyone is doing it. and i don't think it's consider a sin.

it's just lust! i can't control it. although i vow numerous time not to do it again

but! i can't resist the temptation in my head!

it's too difficult!

i've been controlling myself but.. no use. i did it again and again.

God help me!

are you with me?

i wonder.

i love you very much

and i can't live a day without you God.

please be with me.

-I am SORRY-