Sex equals to Love?

Question of the day!

Sex = Love??

youngsters now a days.

they got a little mixed up.

Love and Lust.

"hey look at that girl. dang~! her bobs and bouncing. I think i am in love." someone once said.

so ladies and gentlemen. boys and girls what do you think?

is he in LOVE or in LUST?

I heard gossips about a guy in my college.

he's decent looking but. I can't believe what he did.

LOL it's nothing serious. really.

In fact i am the one who is always judging the book by its cover.

Is he trading love for sex?

only god knows.

but. think about it. How many of the young girls and boys are still virgin below the age of 18?

how may single, per-mature, uneducated Mums out there??

how may rape cases annually in Malaysia?

I mean the ACTUAL amount.

Teenagers lack sex education.

is it because of something called religion pulling them backwards?

Don't waste unnecessary money and time on county development. (eg: Nuclear plant)

since when Malaysia need nuclear energy to generate power supply?

didn't we learn anything from the earth quake, tsunami, and nuclear plant failure in Japan?

didn't we know that radiation kills silently?

Care more about the younger generations.

The future is the reflection of the quality of education that you are giving them today.

I am proud of Bahasa Malaysia but, please don't be a fool by being bold.

English is still the main language to communicate internationally.

Switching and switching the language makes it worse.

STOP CORRUPTION!!!

STOP BEING UNFAIR

Why can't you government people think straight?

you are all blinded by money that can't be carry forward when you meet you creator.

and all of you crooks will have to answer HIM.

go to hell and burn.

-i want love-

The bird

I saw a bird last night.

just outside my room.

I think it was hurt or something.

It couldn't fly.

no matter how hard it try.

i wished i could help.

but i did nothing but cry.

just standing there looking.

waiting for time to consume it.

waiting for it to die.

it's really sad to see a creature die slowly.

what have it done wrong to deserve such pain and punishment?

poor little bird.

no matter where you are.

R.I.P

the rain taps on my window-pain

is the sky crying for you little bird?

or is it sad because i am useless,

did nothing to help you.

he said" he'd help the bird if he were here."

i know he will.

I am sorry.

so sorry.

that i did nothing but cry.

-short life of a little bird-

I am BACK

I am back for good. I guess.

I know I've had some mental break down recently.

Just so you know. This blog meant a lot to me. it's my way of telling my stories.

despite that, I find that i am attached to it.

and when she commented my blog.

i couldn't accept it.

and i gave up.

that's what i always do.

GIVE UP.

Honestly i missed writing.

Not that i can't live without it, but. i hate to block any inspirations.

i can't write as fast as before.

i struggled just to make up sentences.

I wasn't like that.

I know stuffs that i write may not suit everyone.

and i can't force people to like me.

So, i decided i pick up writing again.

Thanks to all my friends that gave me support.

someone once told me that" Even i don't understand your writing, but i enjoyed reading them.."

i know it doesn't make any sense.

makes him look more adorable and lovable.

Thank You :)

I got myself a Holga 135BC

I really wish that i can express myself through LOMO.

will post the pictures after finishing my 1st roll of negative.

Thanks again. For singing this to me.

Miss You to the MAX!!

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are

And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful

And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

-She hated it because she thought that she would lose me, i tell her. she wont be, because she is my guardian angle-

Frustrated

Yeah so what if today's 23rd!

it's another usual boring and useless day!

and yeah

you all don't need to suffer with my blog and my work anymore because i ain't FUCKING write anymore!

thanks to my MUM!

she is so encouraging!

So i quit~!

i don't have the talent either!

this is going to be my last FUCKING post!

so bear with it!

FUCKERS!!

-you asked for what you are facing! it's your fault not mine~!!-

i wonder do you ever really understand and apply the quotes that you post?!

or are you just showing...

This is suitable

This is an old song i know.

but the lyrics got stuck in my head this morning and.

i think it's kinda talking about us. :)

Closed off from love, I didn't need the pain

Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain

Time starts to pass, before you know it you're frozen

But something happened for the very first time with you

My heart melted to the ground, found something true

And everyone's looking 'round, thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud

Their piercing sounds fill my ears, try to fill me with doubt

Yet I know that the goal is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace

And in this world of loneliness I see your face

Yet everyone around me thinks that I'm going crazy

Maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

And it's draining all of me

Oh, they find it hard to believe

I'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see

I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

Tell me HOW?

OK I've been reading Tons of blogs from other blogger in the world.

and some of them are my friends.

I just don't understand why isn't anyone reading mine?

I mean i don't force you to read. but

how can they get HUNDREDS of followers and I have like 2?

honestly i really would like my blog to be read. to be appreciated.

I've been blogging for 2, 3 year i think. i know it's not long but..

You know what i mean.

Who doesn't what their work to be notice?

I admit that i write things that people don't quite understand.

i prefer to follow my style.

I know i lack pictures and colors in my blog but it's not the pictures and the colors that i want you to notice.

I want you to read.

to feel and understand every word.

So if you guys have any suggestions to improve the "traffic" of my blog

can you please kindly comment and tell me how?

Thanks :)

I was thinking of making a video.

like a Vlog.

but i don't know whether is it appropriate since...

you know.. no body bother to read my blog.

would that be even bother to watch my videos?

But. i was just thinking about it.

I guess that i am always an out cast.

Please don't make me feel that i don't belong

and he is the only one i can hang on to.

The distance between me and God is.

getting really far.

Please pull me back closer.

I need it.

It's funny when i re-read the post that i posted.

i was laughing alone.

I really do wonder what others think of my post though.

and i notice that he will be in almost every single post.

:)

Hey, i really do LOVE him.

it's not going to change. what ever you said.

or what ever anyone says.

Good Luck to you my Dear.

You can do it. :)

I will be here for you as you always did when i needed you.

-Miss you very much-

Laskar Pelangi

This is the theme song for the movie :)

It's a story about 10 kids from a very poor place in Indonesia call Belintong. it's about how they fight for the rights to get education and about their childhood. i cried and laugh along. i really wish to watch the movie. i got so touch because this story is real, true. written by Andera Hitara. it's a very good book although it's in BM but try to read :) you would love it.

and there's a song for this movie by Nijid- laskar pelangi

gave me a lot of inspirations.

i really want to pour everything out. my emotions but sadly i just couldn't think of a word now. hmmm just go get one! :) haha that's all i can say~

I guess everyone knows about the Haiti earthquake and the condition of the victims now.

People lets pray from them. What ever religion you r what ever race you r. just pray~

it's not the time to fight about religion or what race we are.

I always thought that we are one. What about SATU MALAYSIA?

what's the purpose of national day??

what's the purpose of the late prime minister Tunku Abdul Rahman that fought for us?

what? tell me!

answer me!

just because of that WORD.

that WORD is just a WORD!

For God's sake.

look! LOOK around us.

Things are happening, people are suffering!

what are we doing here??

FIGHTING?? because of a WORD?? GOD!!! what's WRONG with us??

Yeah, people keep talking about the END OF THE WORLD that is said to end on FRIDAY. but shouldn't we help each other now? since the world is said to be "ending".

Shouldn't we stick together like a family, we are the same HOMO SAPIENS!

a small blogger like me wont do any change, i know. but i really hope i can do something to change, to be better.

politics is not my stuff cuz i know it's dark and dirty.

my English is not as powerful as others.

I am just an ordinary college student that can't even spell right.

what can i do?

just an ordinary blogger.

-ordinary day-

This is where i belong

When was the last time i updated my blog.

Years???

LOL!

i was busy preparing for my final examinations.

*as if i am.

Ok i admit.

i was lazy. AND with the freaking connection i don't think i have the mood to even write.

Why am i writing today?

Because i am HOME :)

finally.

nothing much to write. really.

-wish that you were here-

Angry blogger

I am Frustrated. :(

can you all please tell me. Honestly am i a loser? am i like a sanitary pad where you wear, dirty it and throw it away?

I am not suppose to be sad.

but i am.

i have to keep my cool.

clock is ticking and i didn't start a thing yet. not a single chapter.

am i prepared to fail again this time?

He is always there for me.

by my side.

unfortunately.

Who's here to help me with my financial problem?

I used to admire and LOVE my college.

but now. i realised. ALL OF THEM!! are a bunch of blood suckers!

it's the same.

What ever. I guess it's time to pick it all up and start studying.

FOR YOUR INFORMATION BITCH i ain't doing it for you~

i have better things to do.

You are irresponsible and not discipline at ALL!!

i thank God and seriously GLAD that we stopped there.

I can't imagine how it would be if we continued.

Your looks are lies that man love to fall for.

you heart is made of dirt. You are dirty, and evil.

You are a friend of Lucifer.

I don't like you!

Go far away from me!

-I might get in trouble posting this. but who the hell cares-

Go, Genting

as if i am as lucky as Lim Goh Tong.

i would have millions of ringgit in my bank account.

but i am not.

not bathing for one whole day is disgusting! I always thought that i am a dirty person.

even a dirty person like me can't stand it.

sorry guys, even me myself don't understand why am i being so timid.

hope that i didn't spoil anything.

although our budget is limited. i know one day money wont be a problem to us.

it may be difficult now, but in the future things would eventually change.

after an hour long of cold refreshing shower more inspirations came :)

heaven earth and hell.

i don't know where i belong.

i know you want us to be together in heaven.

but dear, i not that i don't understand.

i know. and i understand.

but it's difficult. really difficult.

You are a really good guy.

sometimes i do think that i don't deserve a guy like you.

my RABBIT PIG :)

If they can see what i see in you. I think they would fall in love with you too.

:)

but no. you are mine!

love the way you shake your body baby! LOL!!!

-Hungry, tired, but full of love-

Singapore

My first time in Singapore.

How was it?

well Singapore is a fine country.

;) if you know what i mean.

if you don't get the joke it's fine.. :P

but. i really have to say, I really love it there. :)

despite the heat and the forever changing weather

with all the drama i caused at Universal studio

i still love it.

And guess what. it's also my first time oversea.

20 years and this is your first time?

like Waoo. i know right.

i want to travel too. but it's not possible to happen in the near future.

I enjoyed the food. the architecture. and almost everything there.

I just LOVE the architecture.

they seem to be so free. to just create and draft their own buildings with different personality.

unlike my own country.

NOTHING to be proud of.

the speech that stupid woman gave and the stupid comments and cartons that Malaysians responded to the Tsunami at Japan.

I was so frustrated and pissed off!

i was like WHAT THE FUCK are they thinking.

they are not sensitive at all!

FUCKING shallow i would say.

Imagine Japan is Malaysia

and Malaysia is Japan. what if the Japaneses did that to the Malaysians.

well they would probably say" Burn their churches down! Protest! Boycott!"

STUPID BRAINLESS IDIOTS!

ouh. God.

i failed again.

and not ready to stand.

pull me.

give me the strength to fight again.

-no more quarrels it's enough.

i missed you more each day.-

Hidup

I am tired.

i just want to quit.

does it make me a quitter?

i don't want to do that any more.

Please.

i know it's a lot better than chemo but i don't think i can.

i am a coward. a coward that's afraid to fail again.

maybe running away from reality will do.

i am weak.

i know it's time to grow up.

he said"stand up again and fight"

i don't have the spirit anymore.

can you please be here with me? :(

he said"You can do it, i believe in you"

but, i don't even believe in myself anymore.

Who am i?

time is short.

how am i going to prepare in such short period?

Yeah.

我其实根本没有很努力。。

你说得对。。

在我体内的千年懒虫，很难消除啊。。

我该怎么办？

我真的。。很想放弃。。

就算你说我逃避现实

你根本就不会明白。。

-I am warned out-

Eternal flame

I never thought that this.

And this can last this long.

I never thought that I would jump and drown.

I was a swimmer.

I was.

Before I met you, everything was not as coulorful.

What happened?

Have you cast a spell on me?

Or this is all just a dream.

Can I do it?

I don’t think I can anymore.

I am giving up. Take me away; I just want to break free.

Please say:” come, take my hand, and we would run. Just the both of us. To a place, just the both of us and no one else.”

I missed you.

I really do. The feeling so strong, it’s impossible to stop it even for a second.

What have you done to me?

Despite all,

I like it. J

When the spring comes with the rainbow high up the sky.

I know. The rain is gone. And the day will come. No matter how long.

The tears we shed. Are they worth it? I asked myself. Part of me says. Yes.

Wait just wait.

it's not that i am lazy to update my blog. it's the problem with the internet connection.

i can't even write peacefully.

-I enjoyed it too-