7 Months

This is the 7th time i am writing this.

but.

it's not as good as before.

i mean.

we were so near yet so far.

it's always the same.

it's special and at the same time it's not.

this is the 1st time that i am near to him.

but. unfortunately.

disaster always struck at the stupidest time of all!

my mum said i always blame others but myself.

and now i don't blame anyone.

seriously,

i wish i could shout.

LOUD!!!

i was like. crying and all today.

it SUCKS~!

i hate it!

i wonder. when can we celebrate our 23rd together.

WHAT I MEAN IS LITERALLY MEETING EACH OTHER FACE TO FACE!

not through web cams! SHIT! sounds like we are damn far!

i mean we are like 10-15km away i guess.

ouh well, maybe.

yeah ,maybe.

anyways. i am much better now. :)

-TODAY SUCKS!-