Flying back or flying to?

Tomorrow.

is

near. as the clock behind me keeps ticking.

and the clock on the desktop.

i am excited to go back and at the same time, reluctant.

wish that i could spend more time with my friends.

i seriously do feel that i am left out.

i missed all the good stuff.

and that's my fault.

i chose to be like this. i guess.

there's good and bad. :)

didn't thought that i would regret my decision.

but. it's a little different now.

i guess he can't replace them.

BUT

i still love spending time with him.

and with consequences.

what am i?

a risk taker?

or am i young and brave?

Nope. i am just playing with fires. that's what my dad would say.

Things at college is getting tougher each step.

i just pray that i passed all my exams for last semester.

and hopefully. I can manage through the 5th semester.

I NEED PRAYERS PEOPLE.

I WANT TO BE NEAR TO THE LORD AGAIN.

but, something is always trying to pull me away from him.

each time i made up my mind.

distractions!

I JUST HOPE THAT YOU ALL ACCIDENTALLY READ THIS AND REMEMBER MY NAME IN YOUR PRAYERS.

-Speech from a sinner-