it's a raining September morning. I should be doing and rushing for my Risk management assignment which is killing me from the inside out.
But you guys know me.
I'm terrified. but what's the point?
living but not feeling?
Me rain and my blog.
I couldn't help myself.
August was shitty in it's own way.
My great grandma passed away on my birthday.
:(
Yeah. she was 88 years old.
It was so sudden.
and I couldn't get over the fact that she's gone.
She have been with us since forever.
It's not that i'm very close with her.
But she sure loved me.
I always knew that i was the special one for her.
somehow i'm glad she passed away.
She doesn't need to suffer anymore.
88 long years. the damage that the world had done to her is enough.
all her suffering ends when she exhale her last breath.
I couldn't attend her funeral. Dad says it's fine.
Her passing away brought relieved to my parents especially.
I'm done crying and asking "why on my birthday?"
It's time to move on.
I learnt that
not to let any opportunity slip from my hand anymore.
I should be more friendly to people. there's no need to put on a facade.
I should not care too much about people that don't deserve it. Caring is suffering, suffering ends up crying like a bitch.
it's raining heavier.
i'm getting heavier.
Your name does rimes with mine, but because of that you chose to let me go. i guess you're not worth it.
I'm leaving Sheffield less than a week time.
Can I not?
Congratulations to my friends :)
I long to have relationship like both of you. May God bless you and little baby Hannah.
So happy for both of you.
All the sacrifices and heart breaks and tears are all worth it.
I guess i'm better off with him.
I deserve someone that don't care for what's my outer shell.
for that someone I once loved.
nothing's more important than acceptance.
You are better off doing what you always do.
Time to pack
Time to pack up my luggage
Time to pack up my emotions
Time to pack
You say that you are over me,
my heart-
it skips,
it sinks.
I see you now with someone new,
I stare,
I stare,
I blink.
Someday I'll be over you,
I know,
I know -
I think.
-Langleav-
-Thank you for loving me and accepting my flaws and loving them as much as my smile. -
-I'm learning to love you and accepting your flaws like you did mine-
