A breach of trust

I know i am not a law student or anything but.

this girl sure know a little something about law! ;)

a lot, happened this few days.

seriously.

you don't wanna know what it's like.

i did that to him. and i am sorry for what I've done.

sorry! :(

and i was. wrong.

what got into me?

to the extend that....

speechless.

am i taking him for granted?

i guess i took everyone nice to me for granted :(

my mum do say that. sometimes.

I love Jay Chou but i guess i have to sacrifice for the best.

and i want to be the best!

listening to his songs since i was. really young and getting his albums was the best of it not until i got scolded by my dad.

it's not a waste of money dad! :)

i think :P

my life time collection, but it's half way.

i don't mind. really.

well, i am hoping to see the rainbow after all the rain and storm.

please.

i don't wanna die in my dreams.

-i need to see your smile not only for today but forever-

9 Months

9 Months already?
and a little late.
there's really alot to tell.
where to start or not to start at all.

but it really don't mean anything without you with me.

I am blinded.
or did i cover my eyes with my own hands.

i don't know.
which is black and which is white.

i am color blind.
show me and lead me.

you and me?
or there's no more you.

clap if you are glad.
look at me.
can't you see which finger am i showing you?
there take it!


-i don't know what i want.-

Lagenda Budak Setan

this is really a good book! by Ahadiat Akashah. A Malaysian writer.

i got this from the book

it's just beautiful.

I never try to impress the queen with my writing

or making the birds sing

or the phones ring

i never want to make you cry

or die

or sigh

I just want to write because i HAVE to write

i just want to write about things i knew RIGHT

so sorry if the writing is about heart

or blood

or tart

because i'm going to write about what i'm going to write

whether the writing is about ride

or guide

or kite

and i never give a DAMN whether

you like it

or HATE it

or yell about it

because i write for what i have to write

and of course i'm going to write

a special book for you to read

not to greet

or spit

just read

and read

till the last deed

reading this while listening to the songs that we used to sing together.

wondering about the tragic love story of Kasyah and Ayu.

it gave me a stronger will to write.

and to write till the end.

to write till my fingers are all crooked.

to write till the last piece of paper.

and to write about anything and everything.

who cares if you want to criticise or curse.

it really doesn't matter anymore.

i don't care what will happen next.

maybe i am too engrossed.

or maybe i am just emotional.

but what happens next.

will eventually happen.

there's nothing to worry about.

i really do miss the time when we were younger.

when running seems so fun.

-the clock continues to tick-

Different

I guess i got hit on the head twice.

I write what i want. To express what ever i like.

those comments from other low life anti social losers are just some pain in the eye.

i won't do anything to change though.

Freedom of speech. Do you have any idea what it means?

So what if I criticise people?

it's up to me.

and did I ever mention any names?

NO ASS HOLE!

There was never a contract between us. so there's no offer or acceptance.

Don't you dare judge me!

Even if i am desperate enough to go FUCK myself. It's none of your business either?

SHIT FACE!

true friends and true comments.

i accept.

Yeah. people like me should go die and never ever exist i guess.

i know the difference.

You don't need to remind me.

Seriously. even there are obvious differences.

What should i do?

Say something SMART ASS!

people just love to make other people's life difficult.

come on!

CHALLENGE ME!

or should i say PICK ON SOMEONE YOUR OWN FUCKING SIZE!

this is all BULL SHIT!

it feels so good to curse.

yet. it don't mean anything.

i am just reflecting my own low mentality.

to give or to take it's not up to you.

just go FLY KITE!

-I seriously need more Jesus in me-

朋友

今天很開心 :)

回來家裡已經有兩天了。。

說好要讀書的。。但卻。。沒做到。

回家哪能專心啊。。:P

今天為何那麼開心呢？

因為吃得好飽哦！！！

天啊！回家真的沒有挨餓的一天 :)

剛剛和兩個老朋友出去吃火鍋還有喝一級棒的西米露！！

偷偷告訴你們。。其實。。我家裡今天也有弄火鍋哦。。但吃得。。不是很開心。。

我真不明白，為什麼一家人就不能開開心心的坐在一起吃頓飯呢?

拜託。。你女兒一個月回來就那幾天。。

算了。。習慣就好。。

還是老朋友最好。。:)

謝謝你們。。我真的很珍惜我們之間的友情。。

一起走過的歲月 :)

剛才，吃著美食，聽著好歌。。和最好的朋友。。人間享受呀！！ :)

我們要一起跑向未來。。一起加油！ :)