"I don't think you know what you want."
and I'd always brush them off with denial.
"Of course I know what I want."
and the answer ended there.
What do I really want?
now, I am writing this to sort my shit out.
What do I really want?
I want someone to see me for what I really am.
under all the layers of fat and laughter, lived this scared insecure girl that constantly needs reassurance and encouragements.
I want someone to tell me stories about their adventure, and their scars.
I want someone that can make me feel butterflies or still blush each time we kiss.
I want to adore and be adored.
I want someone to share little things that happened to me daily.
I want to give love and to be loved.
I want to be the little spoon.
I want to have a shoulder to cry on and also be the 1st person he thinks of during troubled times.
I want to be happy again.
at least be happy.
I wish i can feel like how i used to. like i can do anything.
I want to laugh and fart and burp freely when we are together.
I want to be needed.
I want to be your only netflix and chill partner.
I want a travel partner, someone to do crazy things with.
I want to count each other's gray hair, slow dance to"can't help falling in love" by Elvis Presley
I want someone that i can embrace everyday after work.
someone that i can show off my cooking skills.
I want a workout partner, encouraging each other to do better, to compete.
I want a someone that I can build my home with.
I want someone that is proud to be loved by me.
I want someone that I can showoff to my friends and family.
I want someone that know all my scars and know how to love me right.
I want someone that wont give up on us.
I want someone to make decisions with, go through hurricanes with, i want us to be a team.
I want secret hand shakes and inside jokes.
I want to be the reason or the rock behind his success his happiness.
I want our relationship to be unshakable.
-I want all these to come true.-
