Have you ever talk about the future with the person that you never thought that you will lose in the future?
sometimes. Things are really different, i can still remember the first time i saw him.
it's a kind of feeling that say " HE IS THE ONE" it's like a little voice in your head.
i believe i am not the only one who experience this.
but, as we grow. as we get to know each other more, like each other
and then eventually fall in love.
and that's when things starting to get complicated.
everything seems to change.
and you will start to wonder.
am i making a mistake since the beginning?
it hurts more when remembering conversations about both of you.
talking about the unknown future.
at last, both of you will just end up, quarreling, hating each other
and eventually ending everything.
and one day, maybe 40 years later, on a warm Sunday afternoon,
sitting beside the window drinking tea.
maybe looking at your grandchildren.
maybe. and just maybe. those flash images of both of you will appear.
back then, things are so simple.
when I LOVE YOU is enough to make my day.
when i can smile when his name pops up on my phone.
when this world seems to be such a wonderful place.
no, i mean, this world is still really beautiful and all.
but, it's different when you start seeing things moving in slow motions.
the voices of people seems to chimes. people around you are always with smiling faces
and everything is so... Bright. YELLOW ( for me)
even things that you used to hate isn't that bad anymore.
even the air smells sweet and nice. :)
and please don't tell me that what i wrote above is nonsense.
i dare you swear that you never encounter this before.
i dare you!
You can just ignore it, if you hate my writing so much.
i mean. i wont kill myself because no body's reading my blog.
just like i say. i write what i want.
why life have to be so hard.
why can't it be easier?
i see people around me.
going around. enjoying their life.
I want to travel too.
as if i can. just leave everything and walk!
but, it's not fair.
so, i might as well continue my same old life.
with the same old routine.
sad, that girl still doesn't understand that people are asking her to STOP typing idiot.
glad that i am in MC D now.
MC D's still the BEST!
-I don't have the power to control-
