but the other half of me wished that everything is over by now.
Hop on a plane and there goes that girl chasing her dreams.
I am brave. I am strong. and i am gonna live my beautiful life as full as i can.
I am determine to shed all this weight by next year.
for years and years I've been know as "that FAT girl"
Yes I maybe huge and bigger than most of you but hey, i am can still feel.
I did not dropped down from the sky like Mr. Bean. I did not just "pop" out.
I was made and delivered to this world through my mother's vagina.
Society tends to discriminate people that are different from them.
The skinny bitches only want to mix with their own clan.
as for me the fat girl. float along like an overweight butterfly trying to fit in.
It is ironic when I can't fit into anything. Pretty dresses, pretty clothes, beautiful shoes, pretty accessories, tiny little rings, no cute bag matches what i wear.
the worst is fitting into "clans"
i hate to go shopping with pretty skinny super model mannequin size girls.
what i do is sit and look at them try on clothes, outfits, shoes and tight small stuff that i would kill to wear.
I would die to just be average one day. Just once. but God did not made us to be weak.
He wants us to challenge ourselves
Pushing to the limit!
So here i am. Challenging myself.
Changing to be better. Not to fit in though, just to let myself have the chance to be a bitch.
once in my life time. I can wear pretty dresses, feeling confident and attractive.
Many people don't know that i LOVE LOVE LOVE fashion. funny. I know, i am always a t-shirt, jeans kind of girl through out my whole life.
I really wanna try something new.
Just ignore all of the above. it's me being shallow. I am just lonely.
Society today is getting sicker, mentally.
the shooting, stabbing, wars. This world isn't fucked up. we fuck it up!
People just wake up OK! there's more than what you are feeling, what you see is just 10% of life.
DO NOT do anything stupid to get attention or even thinking about ending your life.
We humans claim to be the "most intelligent" animal on earth. but are we being intelligent?
We studied plants, other species of animals but not our own! there's so little that we know about our own kind. All we see is just the surface.
Come on people, we should always stick together, through easy happy times and also hard times.
We are all made by the same God Almighty.
stop the tears. stop the heartache. stop discrimination, change.
I am not the black sheep of the family anymore. I never was. I was just, different, I was just being myself.
I've been slacking on my posts lately. I do not have an explanation.
but here i am trying to write again.
Nope. not going to put pictures in this post either.
-All of us were born heroes-
