Go, Genting

as if i am as lucky as Lim Goh Tong.

i would have millions of ringgit in my bank account.

but i am not.

not bathing for one whole day is disgusting! I always thought that i am a dirty person.

even a dirty person like me can't stand it.

sorry guys, even me myself don't understand why am i being so timid.

hope that i didn't spoil anything.

although our budget is limited. i know one day money wont be a problem to us.

it may be difficult now, but in the future things would eventually change.

after an hour long of cold refreshing shower more inspirations came :)

heaven earth and hell.

i don't know where i belong.

i know you want us to be together in heaven.

but dear, i not that i don't understand.

i know. and i understand.

but it's difficult. really difficult.

You are a really good guy.

sometimes i do think that i don't deserve a guy like you.

my RABBIT PIG :)

If they can see what i see in you. I think they would fall in love with you too.

:)

but no. you are mine!

love the way you shake your body baby! LOL!!!

-Hungry, tired, but full of love-

Singapore

My first time in Singapore.

How was it?

well Singapore is a fine country.

;) if you know what i mean.

if you don't get the joke it's fine.. :P

but. i really have to say, I really love it there. :)

despite the heat and the forever changing weather

with all the drama i caused at Universal studio

i still love it.

And guess what. it's also my first time oversea.

20 years and this is your first time?

like Waoo. i know right.

i want to travel too. but it's not possible to happen in the near future.

I enjoyed the food. the architecture. and almost everything there.

I just LOVE the architecture.

they seem to be so free. to just create and draft their own buildings with different personality.

unlike my own country.

NOTHING to be proud of.

the speech that stupid woman gave and the stupid comments and cartons that Malaysians responded to the Tsunami at Japan.

I was so frustrated and pissed off!

i was like WHAT THE FUCK are they thinking.

they are not sensitive at all!

FUCKING shallow i would say.

Imagine Japan is Malaysia

and Malaysia is Japan. what if the Japaneses did that to the Malaysians.

well they would probably say" Burn their churches down! Protest! Boycott!"

STUPID BRAINLESS IDIOTS!

ouh. God.

i failed again.

and not ready to stand.

pull me.

give me the strength to fight again.

-no more quarrels it's enough.

i missed you more each day.-

Hidup

I am tired.

i just want to quit.

does it make me a quitter?

i don't want to do that any more.

Please.

i know it's a lot better than chemo but i don't think i can.

i am a coward. a coward that's afraid to fail again.

maybe running away from reality will do.

i am weak.

i know it's time to grow up.

he said"stand up again and fight"

i don't have the spirit anymore.

can you please be here with me? :(

he said"You can do it, i believe in you"

but, i don't even believe in myself anymore.

Who am i?

time is short.

how am i going to prepare in such short period?

Yeah.

我其实根本没有很努力。。

你说得对。。

在我体内的千年懒虫，很难消除啊。。

我该怎么办？

我真的。。很想放弃。。

就算你说我逃避现实

你根本就不会明白。。

-I am warned out-

Eternal flame

I never thought that this.

And this can last this long.

I never thought that I would jump and drown.

I was a swimmer.

I was.

Before I met you, everything was not as coulorful.

What happened?

Have you cast a spell on me?

Or this is all just a dream.

Can I do it?

I don’t think I can anymore.

I am giving up. Take me away; I just want to break free.

Please say:” come, take my hand, and we would run. Just the both of us. To a place, just the both of us and no one else.”

I missed you.

I really do. The feeling so strong, it’s impossible to stop it even for a second.

What have you done to me?

Despite all,

I like it. J

When the spring comes with the rainbow high up the sky.

I know. The rain is gone. And the day will come. No matter how long.

The tears we shed. Are they worth it? I asked myself. Part of me says. Yes.

Wait just wait.

it's not that i am lazy to update my blog. it's the problem with the internet connection.

i can't even write peacefully.

-I enjoyed it too-