so did yall enjoyed my previous post? hope yall did :)
HAPPY WEEKEND!!! OH lord thanks for the weekend~
i've been fucking busy these few weeks. i can't breath~! assignments mid term tests and all those shits!
i feel soooooo cooped up and depressed with a bleeding vagina. :( my back hurts.
NOT anymore lady and gentlemen because...... I've finished most of my work a few tiny little bit and i am off, freedom indeed!
what inspires me to write this post is "my ambitions"
do you remember the time when you were in junior high till high school teachers and parents would always ask the same question
"what do u wanna be when u grow up?"
"what da ya wanna do?"
when i was really young i LOVE to sing and dance<< DAMN! drama queen since baby! LOL
but reality crush it i can't dance no more cuz i am not pretty and skinny enough!
SCREW those teachers go fuck yourself. NOT FIT TO BE A TEACHER! I bet your childhood was full of rapist and abuse to cause yall to crush my dreams!
Asian teachers sucks!( NOT ALL OF THEM) minority of them are still great teachers.
then when i was in my primary school my dad used to bring us to this freaking high society hotel and the people there were so polite and nice and sweet :)
I loved it there, and i got this idea from my dad "I WANT TO WORK IN A HOTEL" that was pretty much the first thing i wanna do when i grow up.
and the years gone by, i fell in love with photography, guitars, rock bands, hippies (i still am), drama club all that stuff.
so after my SPM (it's a stupid government examination that u have to take in Malaysia)
Time to choose for a nice college and stuff.
I remember my parents summon me into their chamber, the lights were dimly lit, it was cold.
LOL
OK! i know i am a drama queen. but seriously the atmosphere was really dense.
and then my parents ask me "so, what da ya wanna be?"
"have u think of it?" (for Christ sake i've been wanting to be a photographer since forever!)
then i told them my wildest dreams.
I want to travel the world, take pictures, play my guitar and make money out of it, write stuff, and when i get enough money i'll move to other places and by the age of 30 i'd probably traveled the world.
just as i finished my speech my dreams was crushed by this fucking enemy of mine, called REALITY!
i admit i am a girl with dreams and waiting for her prince charming (too much of Disney perhaps)
OH well after months of searching and national service, my parents chose a "perfect" college for me. well i have not much choice either with my shitty results. i mean, i have lots of choice but my choices and not the ones that can "FEED" me in the future as my Asian parents believe. and my mom told me something about FENG SHUI and the elements, that banking and fiance is most suitable for me and i will have a bright future =.=lll well thanks to FENG SHUI! i am stuck here!
and there goes my dreams :( flush away with my steams of tears crying alone in the hostel room.
tough life huh!
FEAR NOT! the title of my blog says it all "I AM A SURVIVOR!" 3 years passed i am still standing tall, fat as ever. Healthier. and hippier
SO as yall can see my WHOLE FREAKING life is all planed out by my parents. there's nothing like fucking "FOLLOW YOUR HEART, YOU CAN BE WHAT EVER YOU WANNA BE" shits in my life! screw Disney princesses! :(
oh well there goes 20 years of regrets. am i lucky enough to have him? i dont know.
but i love him. :)
-HAPPY DAY-
