Thursday 23 August 2012

a little twist of Chinese Valentine's day

Hello i am sad. :(
today may be just an ordinary day. but for us it's the 23rd :)

and as always the 23rd is the most meaningful yet depressing day.

i know i shouldn't be negative especially times like this but i just am.
well, i have no title to this post.

there's this Chinese legend that i want to share.



The legend begin with a good-looking poor orphan boy who owns an old ox. He needed to work on the  farm with his ox everyday. His daily life was just like Cinderella's.

The ox was actually a creature or fairy or something :-S from the Heaven. He made mistakes and was punished as an ox on Earth. (i know it's not logic, but bear with me please) 

 One day, the ox suddenly said to the boy, "You are a nice person. If you want to get married, go to the pond and your wish will come true." So the horny boy went to the pond and saw all 7 pretty daughters of the Emperor gliding down from Heaven (creepy) all hot and sexy with their silky fair naked body, having a pool party. 

Fascinated by the youngest and also the most beautiful one, he took away her fairy clothes away secretly. The other six fairies flew away after the party (bitches). The youngest couldn't fly back without her fairy clothes. Then the boy appeared all horny and told her that he would not return her clothes unless she promised to be his wife. 

After a little hesitation and with a mixture of shyness and eagerness, she agreed to marry this handsome young man. So they got married and had two children.

Horny young adults, falling in love.

One day, the old ox was dying, he told the boy to shred his old skin and that he should keep it for emergency purpose. (ewwww i know right.)

The 7th daughter of Emperor is very good at weaving. The Emperor loved her because she would weave the most beautiful clouds and rainbows, so that the world will be a happier place. 

However, after her love affair with the boy, she never returned. 
The Emperor soon found that the sky's not that beautiful as before. He wanted  to bring her back.  While the 7th princess was flying to the Heaven with her grandmother, the boy wore the ox skin, put his children in two bamboo baskets with his wife's old fairy clothes and chased after his wife.

 The grandmother then made a milky way in the sky which kept them separated. The 7th princess was moved to the star Vega (The swooping - Eagle) in the Lyra (Harp) constellation. And the boy with his two children stayed in the star Altair (Flying one) in the Aquila (Eagle) constellation. The star of Vega is also known as the Weaving Maid (princess) Star and the star of Altair is as the Cowherd (boy) Star in Chinese.

Magpies were moved by their true love and many of them gathered and formed a bridge for the couple to meet in the evening of the 7th day of the 7th lunar month, which is the day the Emperor allowed them to meet once a year.

They said that it's hard to find magpies on Chinese Valentine's Day in China, because all of them are flying away to form a bridge for the princess and the boy. 

Prove? well, since both of the couple are stepping on those magpies, the feathers on the head of the magpies are much lesser after the Chinese Valentine's Day. and if it rains, the rain are the tears of the princess and the poor boy.




by the time you read it i may have came up with the lamest post title as usual.

I've always been in love with writing and journalism. it's always my passion, i've been writing for years now!
I mean come on! i need real life human readers! not some other websites trying to spam my chat box!

I need real comments about my writings. I really want to know who reads my blog and what people think of it.

guess i am celebrating this fucking day as usual.

happy birthday to me.

Friday 3 August 2012

Being me




Being me is being Fat.

People who hates fat girl like me should be grateful that they are nothing like me.

Do you know how it feels to fight the lust of stuffing my face with food?
No, you don't cuz you can eat and not be fat at all.

Do you know how it feels to eat and regret every bit of it?
No you don't

Do you know how it feels to see people buying clothes and you not buying it cuz you know you'll never fit?
No, cuz you can wear what ever you want.

Do you know how it feels to be teased, discriminate and bullied?
No, cuz everyone likes you.

Do you know how it feels to like someone so fucking damn much and being reject and called names cuz you are fat?
No, cuz everyone likes you.

Do you know how it feels to have negative self esteem?
No, cuz you are goddamn confident.

Do you know how much i want people to notice my talents?
No cuz they are too shallow to only notice my body size.

Do you know how difficult it is for me to smile every time after being teased?
No, cuz you teased me, crushed me inside out.

Do you know how many times i've questioned myself and God what have i done to deserve this?
No, cuz God loves you.

Can you imagine looking in the mirror everyday and wanting to be normal just for a day?
No, cuz you are perfectly normal.

Can you imagine crying myself to be every night praying that tomorrow will be a better day?
No cuz your days are always perfectly fine.

Can you imagine after all the diet plans and everything i am still back to ground zero?
No, cuz you don't need to try to be beautiful. you are beautiful

Can you imagine me trying to fit in but never will?
No cuz you are always welcomed.

I am fat. I just want to love myself more.
this twisted world is never gonna accept people like me.
so i live in my world.
please don't invade it.
I am just another girl.
I have feelings. guess no one realised.

I just want you all to know who I am.
I am not a happy person. never was never will be.