Frustrated

Yeah so what if today's 23rd!

it's another usual boring and useless day!

and yeah

you all don't need to suffer with my blog and my work anymore because i ain't FUCKING write anymore!

thanks to my MUM!

she is so encouraging!

So i quit~!

i don't have the talent either!

this is going to be my last FUCKING post!

so bear with it!

FUCKERS!!

-you asked for what you are facing! it's your fault not mine~!!-

i wonder do you ever really understand and apply the quotes that you post?!

or are you just showing...

This is suitable

This is an old song i know.

but the lyrics got stuck in my head this morning and.

i think it's kinda talking about us. :)

Closed off from love, I didn't need the pain

Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain

Time starts to pass, before you know it you're frozen

But something happened for the very first time with you

My heart melted to the ground, found something true

And everyone's looking 'round, thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud

Their piercing sounds fill my ears, try to fill me with doubt

Yet I know that the goal is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace

And in this world of loneliness I see your face

Yet everyone around me thinks that I'm going crazy

Maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

And it's draining all of me

Oh, they find it hard to believe

I'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see

I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

Tell me HOW?

OK I've been reading Tons of blogs from other blogger in the world.

and some of them are my friends.

I just don't understand why isn't anyone reading mine?

I mean i don't force you to read. but

how can they get HUNDREDS of followers and I have like 2?

honestly i really would like my blog to be read. to be appreciated.

I've been blogging for 2, 3 year i think. i know it's not long but..

You know what i mean.

Who doesn't what their work to be notice?

I admit that i write things that people don't quite understand.

i prefer to follow my style.

I know i lack pictures and colors in my blog but it's not the pictures and the colors that i want you to notice.

I want you to read.

to feel and understand every word.

So if you guys have any suggestions to improve the "traffic" of my blog

can you please kindly comment and tell me how?

Thanks :)

I was thinking of making a video.

like a Vlog.

but i don't know whether is it appropriate since...

you know.. no body bother to read my blog.

would that be even bother to watch my videos?

But. i was just thinking about it.

I guess that i am always an out cast.

Please don't make me feel that i don't belong

and he is the only one i can hang on to.

The distance between me and God is.

getting really far.

Please pull me back closer.

I need it.

It's funny when i re-read the post that i posted.

i was laughing alone.

I really do wonder what others think of my post though.

and i notice that he will be in almost every single post.

:)

Hey, i really do LOVE him.

it's not going to change. what ever you said.

or what ever anyone says.

Good Luck to you my Dear.

You can do it. :)

I will be here for you as you always did when i needed you.

-Miss you very much-

Laskar Pelangi

This is the theme song for the movie :)

It's a story about 10 kids from a very poor place in Indonesia call Belintong. it's about how they fight for the rights to get education and about their childhood. i cried and laugh along. i really wish to watch the movie. i got so touch because this story is real, true. written by Andera Hitara. it's a very good book although it's in BM but try to read :) you would love it.

and there's a song for this movie by Nijid- laskar pelangi

gave me a lot of inspirations.

i really want to pour everything out. my emotions but sadly i just couldn't think of a word now. hmmm just go get one! :) haha that's all i can say~

I guess everyone knows about the Haiti earthquake and the condition of the victims now.

People lets pray from them. What ever religion you r what ever race you r. just pray~

it's not the time to fight about religion or what race we are.

I always thought that we are one. What about SATU MALAYSIA?

what's the purpose of national day??

what's the purpose of the late prime minister Tunku Abdul Rahman that fought for us?

what? tell me!

answer me!

just because of that WORD.

that WORD is just a WORD!

For God's sake.

look! LOOK around us.

Things are happening, people are suffering!

what are we doing here??

FIGHTING?? because of a WORD?? GOD!!! what's WRONG with us??

Yeah, people keep talking about the END OF THE WORLD that is said to end on FRIDAY. but shouldn't we help each other now? since the world is said to be "ending".

Shouldn't we stick together like a family, we are the same HOMO SAPIENS!

a small blogger like me wont do any change, i know. but i really hope i can do something to change, to be better.

politics is not my stuff cuz i know it's dark and dirty.

my English is not as powerful as others.

I am just an ordinary college student that can't even spell right.

what can i do?

just an ordinary blogger.

-ordinary day-

This is where i belong

When was the last time i updated my blog.

Years???

LOL!

i was busy preparing for my final examinations.

*as if i am.

Ok i admit.

i was lazy. AND with the freaking connection i don't think i have the mood to even write.

Why am i writing today?

Because i am HOME :)

finally.

nothing much to write. really.

-wish that you were here-

Angry blogger

I am Frustrated. :(

can you all please tell me. Honestly am i a loser? am i like a sanitary pad where you wear, dirty it and throw it away?

I am not suppose to be sad.

but i am.

i have to keep my cool.

clock is ticking and i didn't start a thing yet. not a single chapter.

am i prepared to fail again this time?

He is always there for me.

by my side.

unfortunately.

Who's here to help me with my financial problem?

I used to admire and LOVE my college.

but now. i realised. ALL OF THEM!! are a bunch of blood suckers!

it's the same.

What ever. I guess it's time to pick it all up and start studying.

FOR YOUR INFORMATION BITCH i ain't doing it for you~

i have better things to do.

You are irresponsible and not discipline at ALL!!

i thank God and seriously GLAD that we stopped there.

I can't imagine how it would be if we continued.

Your looks are lies that man love to fall for.

you heart is made of dirt. You are dirty, and evil.

You are a friend of Lucifer.

I don't like you!

Go far away from me!

-I might get in trouble posting this. but who the hell cares-