Tired

Hey. it's been 4 years since i am writing. 
but no ones ever appreciate it. 
no comments and my views. LOL 
5 person a month. 
i think all of them must be me. 


so. i am thinking of quitting.


I give up alright. i am sick of talking to myself imagining that there are people out there reading.
but the fact is. i don't think there's any one. 


I don't see any responds. 


so. 
Tell me, do you want me to quit? or do you enjoy reading. 
or i don't get any responds at all. i might as well quit. 
:) 


thanks for all the supports. 

-So long and good bye.  

26 November 2011

It was my day yesterday. 
i graduated diploma. :)


i am blessed to have my love ones surrounding me. 
really glad that most of my friends came.


I didn't get the chance to take pictures with them. i wonder what was i rushing for?
i guess i am the one that would abandon a whole forest just for a three. 
although i hated people doing that. but i guess i am the one who is blind and stupid.


i was Ok at first. but, deep down i regretted. 


i got 3 bouquet of SUNFLOWERS :) LOVE them very much!
never thought that we made it.


the convocation was fast. i had to wait under the canopy like a roasting pig in hell. 
luckily i did not put on any make up. 


sick of having guest in the house and all they do is face the computer. 
you might as well do it at your house!


it's really confusing. 


this bittersweet.


my mum and dad are proud of me at least :)


we took pictures, and they will be up SOON.
i can't promise when, but i will try my best to put them up. 


there's nothing much really. 
i just missed my friends. 




mum still hates him like everyone else. 

-i guess i am a long distance relationship kind of girl after all-

total disaster

why am i always staring my blog with an apology saying that i am not writing for a very long time?
LOL this is funny. 


well. it has indeed been a long time since i last updated my blog. 


and as you guys know i have no idea at all for what had happened. 
all i could say is. i was really busy with assignments. 
Advance Diploma is really different. Although i am still as lazy as usual, but i do try to study and catch up. 


it's sad to see the morels of human being evolve into a stage that is unimaginable. 
what happened to the good old moral values?


long gone with the winds i guess. 


Someone once asked me "what trouble you students the most now a days?" 
the first answer was MONEY!


Oh my Goodness! you can't imagine how important money is to us students! 
man let me tell you.


RM2 - bus to and fro college
average RM4 (sometimes it could be more) - lunch
minimum RM5 - dinner 


minus tea minus snacks minus all the fees this is my average spending for a day. 
i wasn't asking for more. i was shock to see that they only gave me that much. i know it isn't easy to earn money. especially raising 3 kids and an old woman. 
i am desperate here. i told them about working part time. but " HELL NO!" was their answer. what can i say? 


today sucks. what a shitty day. 
packs of dogs running around everywhere i went. 
it's a disgrace. she did it without thinking. ignoring everything. 
Love is great. feelings are strong. 
Ok. stop this.


I almost forgot to tell you guys that my Diploma Graduation is on the 26th of November 2011. :)
which is next two weeks.
Do drop by. take a picture or two. Holga and Sam is ready to shoot. :)


We both wanted so much to be there. but. my parents. 
they don't think that this is a good idea. 
but i don't understand. it's my graduation. i have the rights to invite anyone i like! 


we are depressed. actually i am.
God. i don't know what to do anymore. Please help me. 
the way we missed each other. 
my parents wouldn't see it. we are nonsense to them.
the way we want to meet each other so much. 
the way i cuddle with his shirt at night when i sleep.

i should be doing my assignments rather than writing. well i need a break once in a while. 
Ok. i promise i will try to write at least ONCE a week.
hope to increase the traffic here. 


anyone out there reading my posts. i THANK YOU and i LOVE YOU! 
don't be shy and give me some feed back.
i really do need them. 

-Smile- 

What should i call them

I found out that the frequency of me writing is getting lesser and lesser year by year.
Why is it happening? 
i can't answer it myself. 
Lazy? or simply just lack of inspirations.


wanting to shine too much makes you feel more dull. 
so i might as well stay as i am.


i once heard lady gaga said that we should worship ourselves.
Love who we are, because that's all we've got. 


This is true. 
no matter who you are.
How you look like, you are special. 
Really special. because God made you like this. Unique. 
We all are His baby. 


feelings that i couldn't express. I want salvation. 
save me from reality.
Lets run and get married at some exotic island under the most romantic moon light. 
Just me and you. Ignoring the world. 


living in a world with so many faces. I am impressed that i can survive. 
but with him no mask or camouflage is needed. I can be myself and knowing that he's loving every minutes of it. 


Praying to god to make it through everyday has became a routine for me. 
Teaching myself how to put a smile on my face
 not a soul knowing how desperately i needed you by my side.


He's a great guy to take the responsibility, I am happy for her. I really am.
:)
I wish them happiness and prosperity.
pray that they are all healthy.


How do you measure wealth?
I think most of us measure it based on the figures in our bank account.
from now on, i am trying to measure wealth by how happy i am.
the happier i am the wealthier it is. 


i mean, what's the purpose of living if we are all constantly counting our money instead of our blessings. 


It is amazing that i actually felt relived writing it all out. Glad that writing still have this effect on me. 


We shouldn't take life too seriously but there are times that we should act mature.
or else people will hate you or worse you are just their laughing stock. 
Just like how i see you now.


please don't make a fool of yourself just to shine.


Shine with dignity. 


he said that he hope i sees the truth one day. i really do pray for it.

-God bless the world- 

another forbidden story

Hey guys it's been a while since i updated my blog. 
I was kinda busy with college re opening and all.
trying to adapt i guess.


it may not be a new learning environment but i am staying outside now so i have to take the bus to college EVERYDAY just like any other college students :)


this is actually exciting for me.
I can't really explain but, i actually do not have MONDAY blue. LOL
but i think i will probably get bored of all this in a few months time.


Ok. The title of my blog clearly states what i want to talk about today.
I watched a movie yesterday it's called the sorcerer and the white snake
I know i know the title is a bit lame. but i think the story line is amazing. i will cut the story short LOL


this is actually a Chinese classic. a legend a myth maybe.
It is about a white snake who can transform itself into human form, she fell in love with a poor fellow, which have great personality.
I was not only amazed by the fighting and special effects but also the love they had for each other.


So there was this monk, his job is to fight evil spirits and keep them in this pagoda on an island.
he found out that the snake married this poor fellow. 
Which is forbidden for humans to fall in love with Ghosts and magical creatures.


the monk kept trying to pull both of them apart, at first the poor fellow did not know that his wife is actually a white snake. obviously she transformed herself into a beautiful maiden LOL.


but even after the poor fellow knew about the true identity of his wife, he risked his life to safe his wife and all the promises and vows.
the white snake risked her life too, to safe her husband. 


I cried hard during the movie.
their love for each other is so pure. they want nothing in return but to be able to love each other and to live together forever and ever.
they sacrifice for each other just because of love.  
they are willing to give their life. Just to love.


i don't see such love any more now days. especially among young people.
call me nood call me dumb. i don't care.
their love is amazing.


but the saddest thing is they can't be together. 
i remembered the snake said " why is the love between a ghost and a human not counted as love?"
she said " i truly love him" and you can see that through her eyes. 


no matter how hard they love. how hard they try to be together.
in the end.


they didn't make it.
the snake's trap under the pagoda probably for a thousand years.


that's the end of it. a sad love story. 
one of the reason i cried hard is because i thought of me and him.


all we want is to love.
but, this world isn't this simple. 
it's sad but it's the fact. 


but above all i am grateful that i am able to love and be loved :)


-hug me and don't ever let go- 

Advance Diploma

this little girl is really talented. Check her out :) 

This is the first very step for me to complete my dream.
My UK dream. :)


I passed all my papers!
thank GOD Almighty!
the best grades throughout my diploma year. LOL


I can't believe it myself either.
and this made me SCREAM at the top of my lung this morning.
I will not grumble anymore after this as promised :)


I will work my ass up! 
UK wait for me.


i felt relived. as if the clouds are all gone and the sun shines so brightly.
as if i can do anything in the world. 
I felt confident again. 
well, the cancer cell is now officially cut off.
and you all know this thing about cancer, it might come again.
Therefore, i will try my best not to get infected again. Focus on my studies and quit being a quitter. 
Quit grumbling and blaming everyone.


I made my parents proud :)
for the first time i felt their happiness.
My sisters too are amazed by this miraculous out come. 
he said"my girl." and he felt proud saying that. 


It all paid off. 
nights and nights without sleeping
and all the excess weight i put on. 
well, i am gonna take care of the weight problem SOON. i think.


Oh, another good news for you guys.
I finally MOVED OUT from that stupid ass hostel! 
I am a free bird! 
everything seems fine. so far so good.
I LOVE my new apartment.
it's spacious and comfortable.
Although it's like a hunted house before my friends and i cleaned it up but, 3 days of intensive cleaning this is is finally fit for us to call HOME.


the swimming pool is just at the back of my huge balcony. isn't it fantastic? 
and the Gym too. time to shed this excess weight of mine SOON. LOL


I thank GOD for all this.
All the credits goes to THE Creator.
because he listens to prayers.
I've been praying real hard.
and he answers it. :)


-I want to SHINE AGAIN. polish me God-

console

i need  consolidation for my soul.
only by writing, i feel better.
i don't know is it because of my period or because there's really something wrong with our relationship. 




well as you all know I've been fighting for everyone to accept my relationship with him.
i always thought that our relationship's different.
i thought that we will never have the so called "4 phase" of a relationship.
i was too naive i guess. i thought it will be smooth sailing.
Of course there are a few rough waves during the journey, but i never though that the ship needed a break.


eventually. one of the captain command the crew to raise the sail. not dropping the anchor yet though.


we were having this conversation like every other nights. it was fine at first. but it came to a point that he said" well, that's all i guess. i have nothing to talk about anymore. (indicating that we should hang up)" 


and i was like"that's it? seriously? you don't want to talk anymore? or are you busy?"


cut the story short. i was offended when he said he have nothing to do, but he have nothing to say, he thinks that we should hang up first. talk again before going to sleep. 
Am i being hyper sensitive over small things? is it because of my menstrual? I have NO idea. Gosh i sounded like a FUCKING Teenager going through PUBERTY! 
FUCK! 


i am RESTLESS!

i can't stay still!
i don't get it!
am i being too pushy? 
or what ever you call "physco girl friend?"


My goodness gracious i just hope this stop!


please don't let the ship sink like Titanic. :(

-please give me strength- 

freaked out

I totally lost it.

i can't believe i actually freaked out.

i called him thousands of times. i couldn't get to him.

i was going mad.

we were on the phone half an hour ago. and now i can't even get through him.

unfortunately his 2nd girl friend fell into the red pail full of water.

:(

i need to be with him right now!

i am worried sick!

he's far away and alone.

Shit! i am talking as if he's my son.

Oh God.

help us.

all i can do now is Pray. really. really hard.

people are asking about us.

about his race and religion.

about our relationship.

my family is ashamed, people are criticizing.

they are mean to us. not even listening and look with their heart.

they don't know what we have between us.

maybe for you it's rubbish and nonsense.

my sisters hated him.

they thought that i love him more than them.

it's not like that.

i love my family and he is like my family.

so i love them both a lot.

"when can they accept me?" he asked.

please tell me the answer. anyone.

it hurts so much to see him leaving, alone, with his head down.

people out there are like giants, constantly trying to step on us.

they want us to die. to end this relationship

because to them, only their relationships are real.

only same race and religion is acceptable.

they do not see the good in him.

as if he is worthless.

he once said to me

"am i some kind of crook or criminal that my name is prohibited to be mention in front of your family?"

what did he do to deserve this?

is it because he's born to be a Malay?

he's a Malay guy and i am a Chinese girl.

we are in love.

and that creates war.

what did i do wrong?

what do you all want from me?

"they wants us to end our relationship, they don't want us to see each other anymore. but i can't do it. i just can't."

honestly. i can't do it too.

i rather get knock hard on my head and lost all my memories.

i can't contact him.

:(

i am sad. depressed and fat.

he is lost, sad, poor and alone.

help us.

anyone.

God. please be with him.

he needs you now.

middle fingers up for having long distance relationship and a phone socked in water.

-dear phone. please get well soon. we love you. we need you.-

Hari Merdeka

Today is Malaysia's National day/ Independence day.

and i was born 20 years ago. this day.

this day used to be the high light of the year.

when i was small, my relatives, family and friends will come around and give me kisses and hugs.

not to forget huge birthday cake and also presents.

as i grow older.

the presents

the laughter.

the fun

the hugs and kisses

all the love.

tend to vanish slowly.

reducing each year.

and the know the day will come to an end where.

today is insignificant at all.

but. thanks for everything.

i didn't want it to be like this.

i didn't want to have to be emo and down today.

I just wanted to meet you.

i don't need any celebrations nor presents.

i just want to be with you.

We are so near. yet the wall. the distance is so far.

i can't even see.

i can't feel you anymore.

you are unreachable.

There used to be fireworks, and parade.

but now. nothing's left.

gone with the development of the country

that is corrupted.

two evil and mean people. the leaders of our country.

yeah. Malaysia Boleh.

they chose Hari Malaysia instead of Hari Merdeka.

we did NOTHING to achieve hari fucking Malaysia.

but the leaders of the times did everything!

blood were shed.

tears were pouring.

to be independence.

i understand that no one cares.

who the hell cares about birthdays anymore?

i am 20 years old today.

thanks to my mother and father.

making me and feeding me.

i am 20 years old today.

I am fat overweight and ugly.

i am 20 years old today.

i hardly make my parents proud.

i love my country the way it was.

without evil people invading without corruptions.

-I am 20 years old today.-

I finished my Diploma

This makes me wants to PUKE!

Why don't anyone sue fucking 8TV?

This is disgusting!

who the HELL will do such a commercial?

Betol aku tak faham! Selama ni aku anggap semua orang sama je.

tak pernah aku nak kutuk, nak maki nak hamun!

Aku terima je apape korang buat.

kadang-kadang ada jugak pasal kaum M yang menyakitkan hati aku!

tapi aku sabar aku terima!

Apa ni? sial la!

kalau betol korang anggap aku macam ni.

terus delete aku dari friend list korng.

aku malu ada kawan macam korng ni!

ada je 2 3 ekor dalam friend list aku yang racist.

aku tak berbudi bahasa macam orang yang buat iklan ini.

aku sabar aku terima.

Sembahyang la 10 kali sehari pun kalau sikap tu tak ubah memang sama je!

tutup la badan tu macam pochong pun kalau gatal tu tetap gatal~

macam la orang yang pakai tudung tutup aurat tu orang baik!

I don't fucking think so!

kalau tak, tak akan wujud la suicide boomer!

may be this is the real world.

i am just too naive to think that we can life peacefully happily under 1 roof.

ashamed! no wonder people are leaving Malaysia for a better place.

curse this and let it be cursed always!

ouh! kalau korang rasa aku cakap pelak, cuba korang cakap BI.

BI je aku tak suruh lagi cakap cina!

Bodoh!

Travel

happy song for depressing souls out there.

Hey.

i know it's been a long time since i last update my

blog.

i've been busy and lazy. despite that i've been traveling :)

not to some exotic places of course.

I went to Malacca it's a small town full of historical traces.

if you study your history well and i bet you know the

story about Praramesuara the little deer and the tree. After that then came the

Portuguese, they were the first to invade Malacca and rule it for more than 100 years. Then came the British and the Japanese and bla3..

I had quite a wonderful time in Malacca. The weather, the people and most importantly the FOOD! the culture and not to forget the architecture there :)

I am literally in LOVE with the Baba Nyonya house.

currently listed as my dream house.

good thing about small town, less traffic and less pollution.

Fruits dipped in rich chocolate

Irresistible DURIAN PUFF!

Next stop Port Klang.

Porky! LOL!

it's famous for it's pork cooked with herbs and tea in a clay pot.

certainly a delicacy.

port Klang is also a small town.

living in a peaceful neighborhood

wooden house. cement floor zinc roof, bathing with a pail scooping up cold water.

people there basically know each other! they are nice and friendly.

not to forget the FOOD there, besides porky the sea food there is also mouth watering.

majority population in these two town are Chinese so, i basically enjoy being a Chinese and eating real Chinese food! :)

hope to go to Penang some day.

I've been eating and going around spending and putting on weight! :-l that's not a good thing.

train heading back to reality

I remembered getting down from the train. feeling the heavy weight on my shoulders again.

why do we have to live with burdens and responsibilities?

I hate to be bothered, this isn't anti social i just need my own space.

I am trying hard to control my temper and my tongue.

and tell me, who love to be told what to do?! I am tired of this. when can this stop? am i going to live this life for another 50 years?

Sick of being surrounded my insecurities. Please just find something and grab hold of it. Not me. I may be Fat but i am not a buoyant. or a log.

I am struggling too. swimming against the current. I mean, who isn't?!

Life's hard. grow up kiddo! you did this to yourself and quit asking people why!

this is insane.

I am not being mean. it's the fact.

you can comment and act as if everything you say is correct but the fact is still the fact.

guess i need to stop acting this way and try to accept people the way they are.

Lord i need you so much!

I really do hope you listen and answer my prayers.

Finals is another 2 weeks. Pray for me. anyone.

i need prayers. I seriously do.

to all my Muslim friends Selamat berpuasa :)

-get the emo out of me-

BERSIH

7092011

Why so unfair?

where are all your sanity?

I thought this is a democratic country.

Where are the democracy?

The video above is about an old lady.

ex government servant.

she went to join the yellows alone.

took a bus. without knowing where and when. she went. alone.

stopped by police. Questioned her.

But she still stand tall on her believe.

What she wants is Justice and Peace.

What she wants is for the younger generations.

why can't they understand? Why don't they listen?

I feel useless.

Why didn't i stood on my foot? when something small blocked my way, i ran and hide.

This old lady. Did not hide. She was attacked by tear booms and chemical water.

i have nothing to say to defend myself. She is the lady of liberty.

SHAME of you PRIME MINISTER and all the EVIL people out there!

Go Burn in HELL

you compare.

-we hate politics-

Paradise

Define paradise.

with you. it's always so perfect.

i hope it never ends.

teenage dream?

you are more than that.

you are the best thing i ever have.

words just can't describe the bond between us.

people will not understand.

maybe they think it's crap.

they are too foolish and shallow to understand.

you are one in a million and one of a kind.

i begin to doubt my sanity without you with me again.

when will be the next bonding?

i guess it will always be an unknown.

I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that way
I watch the sunlight dance across your face and I've
Never been this swept away

All my thoughts just seem to settle on the breeze
When I'm lying wrapped up in your arms
The whole world just fades away
The only thing I hear
Is the beating of your heart

'Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
Suddenly I'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe

In a way I know my heart is waking up

As all the walls come tumbling down
I'm closer than I've ever felt before
And I know
And you know
There's no need for words right now

'Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
Suddenly I'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe

Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe

I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that way

-I love it when you love me-

Most guys are JERKS

I had a bad day today!

i am not sure when but i am full of negativity!

i cant smile.

i cant think of any happy stuff!

My thoughts are all about cursing words my mouth cant stop cursing!

God i need you right now.

and my mission is to give more love to this world!

i fail! again.

i know i did it 4 times but is this karma?

or should i even believe in it?

Well, back to the point! i find that most guys are Jerks!

they silently steals a girl's heart.
play with it
and lastly RIP IT into pieces!

What the hell are they thinking?!

i guess they just LOVE to hurt other people's feeling.

fuckers out there are you born to hurt? to destroy? please go to hell.

So girls out there!

watch out! your prince charming will come sooner than you think!

so just be patient, wait and most importantly PRAY!

no matter what religion you are i believe that PRAYING is the best solution for EVERYTHING!

calm yourself and let God handle every unknown every uncertainty commit yourself to him and you will have a good life. Just TRUST him.

-i am going crazy without you with me-

My reflection

I made a video yesterday. Edited.

but after replaying again and again.

i became sick of myself!

I was so fake! seriously!

looks like a bitch.

i means it's terrible! i can't bear to watch it anymore. So. i deleted it.

I am a blogger. not a Vlogger :)

i love writing more. don't need to put up any fake accent or any mask.

just to hide who i am.

well, it's father's day today~!

sent Boris a simple text. and made his day. I guess.

I just want to make him proud.

but i don't know how.

i will just continue to be me.

because i am his daughter. not some bitch.

Boris this song is for you :)

i missed watching cartoons with you.

-lazy day-

Forgiveness

There's whole lot of drama going on this few days.

i just can't describe my feelings using words.

you can't understand. but i really do care. i really do want to try!

你最近不说话

怎么了，为什么
是不是有什么事啊
让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱
有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
你最近不说话
怎么了，为什么
是不是有什么事讓你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱
有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
爱我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

-we cant live without each other, yet..-

Sex equals to Love?

Question of the day!

Sex = Love??

youngsters now a days.

they got a little mixed up.

Love and Lust.

"hey look at that girl. dang~! her bobs and bouncing. I think i am in love." someone once said.

so ladies and gentlemen. boys and girls what do you think?

is he in LOVE or in LUST?

I heard gossips about a guy in my college.

he's decent looking but. I can't believe what he did.

LOL it's nothing serious. really.

In fact i am the one who is always judging the book by its cover.

Is he trading love for sex?

only god knows.

but. think about it. How many of the young girls and boys are still virgin below the age of 18?

how may single, per-mature, uneducated Mums out there??

how may rape cases annually in Malaysia?

I mean the ACTUAL amount.

Teenagers lack sex education.

is it because of something called religion pulling them backwards?

Don't waste unnecessary money and time on county development. (eg: Nuclear plant)

since when Malaysia need nuclear energy to generate power supply?

didn't we learn anything from the earth quake, tsunami, and nuclear plant failure in Japan?

didn't we know that radiation kills silently?

Care more about the younger generations.

The future is the reflection of the quality of education that you are giving them today.

I am proud of Bahasa Malaysia but, please don't be a fool by being bold.

English is still the main language to communicate internationally.

Switching and switching the language makes it worse.

STOP CORRUPTION!!!

STOP BEING UNFAIR

Why can't you government people think straight?

you are all blinded by money that can't be carry forward when you meet you creator.

and all of you crooks will have to answer HIM.

go to hell and burn.

-i want love-

The bird

I saw a bird last night.

just outside my room.

I think it was hurt or something.

It couldn't fly.

no matter how hard it try.

i wished i could help.

but i did nothing but cry.

just standing there looking.

waiting for time to consume it.

waiting for it to die.

it's really sad to see a creature die slowly.

what have it done wrong to deserve such pain and punishment?

poor little bird.

no matter where you are.

R.I.P

the rain taps on my window-pain

is the sky crying for you little bird?

or is it sad because i am useless,

did nothing to help you.

he said" he'd help the bird if he were here."

i know he will.

I am sorry.

so sorry.

that i did nothing but cry.

-short life of a little bird-

I am BACK

I am back for good. I guess.

I know I've had some mental break down recently.

Just so you know. This blog meant a lot to me. it's my way of telling my stories.

despite that, I find that i am attached to it.

and when she commented my blog.

i couldn't accept it.

and i gave up.

that's what i always do.

GIVE UP.

Honestly i missed writing.

Not that i can't live without it, but. i hate to block any inspirations.

i can't write as fast as before.

i struggled just to make up sentences.

I wasn't like that.

I know stuffs that i write may not suit everyone.

and i can't force people to like me.

So, i decided i pick up writing again.

Thanks to all my friends that gave me support.

someone once told me that" Even i don't understand your writing, but i enjoyed reading them.."

i know it doesn't make any sense.

makes him look more adorable and lovable.

Thank You :)

I got myself a Holga 135BC

I really wish that i can express myself through LOMO.

will post the pictures after finishing my 1st roll of negative.

Thanks again. For singing this to me.

Miss You to the MAX!!

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are

And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful

And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

-She hated it because she thought that she would lose me, i tell her. she wont be, because she is my guardian angle-