total disaster

why am i always staring my blog with an apology saying that i am not writing for a very long time?
LOL this is funny. 


well. it has indeed been a long time since i last updated my blog. 


and as you guys know i have no idea at all for what had happened. 
all i could say is. i was really busy with assignments. 
Advance Diploma is really different. Although i am still as lazy as usual, but i do try to study and catch up. 


it's sad to see the morels of human being evolve into a stage that is unimaginable. 
what happened to the good old moral values?


long gone with the winds i guess. 


Someone once asked me "what trouble you students the most now a days?" 
the first answer was MONEY!


Oh my Goodness! you can't imagine how important money is to us students! 
man let me tell you.


RM2 - bus to and fro college
average RM4 (sometimes it could be more) - lunch
minimum RM5 - dinner 


minus tea minus snacks minus all the fees this is my average spending for a day. 
i wasn't asking for more. i was shock to see that they only gave me that much. i know it isn't easy to earn money. especially raising 3 kids and an old woman. 
i am desperate here. i told them about working part time. but " HELL NO!" was their answer. what can i say? 


today sucks. what a shitty day. 
packs of dogs running around everywhere i went. 
it's a disgrace. she did it without thinking. ignoring everything. 
Love is great. feelings are strong. 
Ok. stop this.


I almost forgot to tell you guys that my Diploma Graduation is on the 26th of November 2011. :)
which is next two weeks.
Do drop by. take a picture or two. Holga and Sam is ready to shoot. :)


We both wanted so much to be there. but. my parents. 
they don't think that this is a good idea. 
but i don't understand. it's my graduation. i have the rights to invite anyone i like! 


we are depressed. actually i am.
God. i don't know what to do anymore. Please help me. 
the way we missed each other. 
my parents wouldn't see it. we are nonsense to them.
the way we want to meet each other so much. 
the way i cuddle with his shirt at night when i sleep.

i should be doing my assignments rather than writing. well i need a break once in a while. 
Ok. i promise i will try to write at least ONCE a week.
hope to increase the traffic here. 


anyone out there reading my posts. i THANK YOU and i LOVE YOU! 
don't be shy and give me some feed back.
i really do need them. 

-Smile-