Wallpaper

Wallpaper.

for the 1st time.

i did not feel guilty. or wrong to put certain picture as my wallpaper.

i used to feel that. when.. those were the dayssss..

but now..

i feel happy and new about putting our picture as wallpaper.

i actually like that :)

today was really fun.

i got his number.

the old him.

heard his voice.

but i know who is my prince. :)

Shahrul Faiz

-Like that T-

Insomnia is killing me

INSOMNIA again.

:(

why is it always because of you?

because you always make me EXCITED!

hahaha

i feel high.

it's not like i am drunk or on drugs or anything.

i just feel really happy with you.

but the this is. i found more secretes of you.

is there something that you are hiding from me?

I have totally no idea.

but, i made up my mind to trust you and i will, continue to do so.

it's hard to say I LOVE YOU when i really mean it.

it's not that i don't wanna say.

or, maybe i am just too SHY *BLUSH*

there's something about you that makes my stomach full of butterfly when you touch me :)

i kinda like that feeling.

AND it's that feeling that get me into insomnia.

to be happy but not to sleep??

this love is killing me.

because of love.

i will die for you? maybe....

i wanna hug you :)

i love it when you hold my hands.

makes me feel that you really do care about me.

it's hard to explain, but, that's what you make me feel.

I am really sorry for today. it's all my fault. sorry.

I will make it up to you baby :)

i mean it!

-Kissing you is the best-

Rocky and Me

it's already 12.49AM and i am with my rocky and milo.

huhu

with my phone beside me. as usual waiting for your reply.

i wonder. what els could i do other than waiting.

sometimes i do feel kinda bored :(

Live like tomorrow is the end.

how??

despite all the religious stuff and all.

i just want to FLY back to my family.

really do miss them now.

hostel is really empty.

and my clothes are like still up stairs. LOL

college life.

here i am alone in my room.

bored. don't feel like studying.

FOA I WILL PASS!

GOD help me.

i want to write more though but nothing.

i just feel disappointed. am i the only one waiting?

i know it's not fair to say. sorry. but this is how i feel.

Muhammad Shahrul Faiz.

i miss you. :)

i wish i could just hug you right now.

too look deep into your eyes.

to know your thoughts.

you mean a lot to me baby.

give me a kiss. and tell me you love me.

and mean it. let me know that you care. because.

we don't know when is the end.

i want to enjoy every second when we are together.

One day, when i am ready, i would ask you to read. i hope it's not too late.

-Are you asleep?-

2 Months

can't believe that i am actually writing this every month.
but i like it :)

as much as i like him.. lol
i was thinking about trust and not to trust.
to chose, i chose to trust.
what's the use of being together but not trusting each other?

I am still young. i can make mistakes, i can fall and climb again.
i can learn and hurt and heal.
because this is life.
Maybe God wants me to experience. I don't know.
but all i know is i will enjoy.

3 more days and i am done for this semester.
i can't wait to go back.
someone once asked me, how much i miss him.
i know the answer now. i feel like hugging him. never to let go.
i want to listen to his heart beat and feel him kissing my forehead.. :)
i just want to sleep in his arms...

is that love? or i just missed him too much??
well, he said forever and always again today :)
God. are you with us? can you see this? or am i blinded?


living in sins. i want to be holy as much as he does.
his GOD, my GOD
aren't they the same?

no answer for that.
tonight. i want to dream. because there's nothing forbidden in dreams.
we would say "I Do" in the most beautiful place.
it will be perfect. because. it's in my dream.
and he can lift me up easily. despite my size.
because, it's in my dream.

as he always say"mimpi yang indah :)"

-peluklah tubuh ku-

Petang 17 April

Petang ni, aku habis paper Investment yang susuah lagi sial :)

But i like that subject though.

LOL

jalan dari hostel ke dewan perekse.

JAUH giler!

dah la panas!

sampi situ macam dah mandi 2 kali~

tepat pada pukul 2 petang.

peperiksaan di mulakan.

then, i started my dream :)

tak lah!

mula laa tulis macam.

ape-ape jer yang aku ingat :)

Harap-harap boleh pass.

Lepas perekse hujan pulak.

jalan kaki balik hostel.

dengan daun-daun yang bertebangan.

aku rasa macam tengah shooting music vedio jer. :P

Aku tak nak resit!

yuran resit tu pun dah naik harga!

ape laa~ from rm80 to rm100.

ishh~

itu je la untuk hari ni.

tidak apa-apa yang istimewa.

aku hanya blogger biasa.

yang biasa bertulis dalam bahasa Inggeris.

i used to be good in BM :) SPM dapat A1 pulak tu!

but it's been really long since i last wrote any BM essay..

just hope you guys like my blog and continue to read them :)

hey Super number ONE! wait for me! i have 2 more papers to go and 26 i will be flying back to meet you!

MISS YOU badly!!!

-Ayat-ayat CINTA-

Kita berdua.

pasal aku dan dia.

kau dan aku~

aku dan kamu.

pernahkah kau fikir perbezaan antara kita.

ya, perbezaan. perasaan yang lama ku pendam.

kau tidak pernah ungkit tetapi, adakah kau perasan?

perbezaan antara kita.

negara Malaysia. negara yang penuh dengan budaya dan kaum berlainan.

ya. aku dan dia. telah jatuh cinta?

adakah itu cinta antara kita?

atau itu hanya perasaan 2 remaja.

sayang. betul saya sayang kepada kau. :)

kalau perbezaan tidak menjadi halangan

saya betul-betul harap kita 2 boleh kekal samapi tua.

kejam. dunia ini kejam sayang.

aku sedar.

pengorbanan diperlukan

tetapi, siapa yang sudi korbankan diri?

aku? kau?

walau aku betul harap untuk bersama dia sampai tua.

tetapi tidak mustahil suatu hari nanti kita akan pisah.

dan hari itu, akan datang. itu yang membuat aku takut.

betul aku takut. ketakutan itu tidak pernah lagi ku rasai.

itu yang membuat aku ingin berjumpa dengan kau.

aku ingin memeluk dirimu.

tolong jangan tinggalkan aku.

bolehkah mimpi aku dikabulkan?

masalah agama?

aku tidak berani mengungkit.

isu-isu sensetif.

sekadar blogger yang kecil.

aku luahkan perasaan ku disini.

dengan Bahasa Melayu yang tidak berapa betul.

Minta maaf jika ada salah.

siapa-siapa yang rajin

tolong betulkan. :)

-LUAHAN HATI-

in the mood

it's a long time since i have the mood to update my blog :)

well, today's a tired day.

went to JJ's mini concert. with my friends.

i don't really "like" him but, once in a life time experience like my dad use to say..

yeahhh i know exam is like few more days away.

and my heart keep beating and racing. for? to go home.

to meet you! :)

i do miss you.

LOL

ok i am not going to talk about you like in all my posts.

it's not like you will read them ;p

I wonder what makes us different?

i mean, famous people and us.. ordinary people.

like JJ, i stood quite near to him and i notice that.

we are not much different actually despite the size and sex.

then something hit me, it's the way we bring ourself.

the way we express and the way we act.

and maybe that's the thing that makes us different.

i always wanted to get to know people. LOTS of people.

hope my dream will come true one day. and the most important that is, i want people to know me too :)

the way i am. YII YOKE, and that's why i am always updating my blog.

Just hope that people will read. and i guess by writing, or i should say typing is a better way to express my feelings and thoughts.

erm thanks BLOGSPOT! :D

i am not promoting anything though.

hmm, what a tired day today.

i smell like a homeless person.

ewwwwww~~

Wokay got to go bath and continue studying.

BTW to anyone who reads my blog. i thank you very very much!

really appreciate it.

and DO PRAY FOR ME!

for my exam of course.

and~! FOR ME AND MY SUPER NO.1 :)

-GOOD DAY-

A Sunny Day

It's hot outside.

and sunny. glad that i am in my room :)

working on TAMADUN ISLAM'S make good assignment.

it's a long story and you wouldn't wanna know.

and i am sick of telling people. LOL

MISS BIG MOUTH..

am i??

well sometimes i really can't control my emotions

and i felt better when i just blab out everything to someone.

but when a secret it will always be a secret. ;)

i wish to write more. i mean like something really interesting and cool

that's happening around me. but i just can't think of anything.

guess my life's dull. :(

well not that 'dull' u know...

i am happy when we text

and when we talk on the phone until it hang up by itself.

and i am also happy that you accidentally pressed your phone and we can talk a bit longer.

i kinda fell in love with your voice. i don't know why.

when you felt sick of that. i felt sick of this too.

but it's too difficult for us to make it equal.

things are different out there.

the so called real world.

our little 'love sprout' is really weak.

people out there with their giant stinking feet.

and we are gonna say good bye.

this is really complicated to understand.

i am not really sure of what i am writing now a days.

well as if like people will read my blog. lol

am i a failure?

-GOOD LUCK FOR EXAM-

知道

我们知道的事很多。。长大了。。我们了解得更多。。

可是

我们知道被拒绝的痛。。

可是我们常常拒绝别人。。

我们知道被欺骗的痛。。

可是我们还是在欺骗别人。。

我们了解寂寞的滋味。。

可是我们不曾给寂寞的人温暖。。

我们知道道歉可是不被原谅的感觉。。

可是我们却没真心的原谅过别人。。

我们不想被伤害。。

可是每一次都在伤害别人。。

我们了解，明白也知道很多事情。。

可是却不曾去实行。。

我们很自私。。。

看到了却假装看不见。。

遗憾？会吗？我不认为。。

再见。