Goodbye City

It's raining again, this may be the last time that i'm writing from Kuala Lumpur in a long time. 
In this rented house.

Memories.
packed my stuff.
You can't imagine the amount of things you accumulate throughout the years. 
almost uncountable.

So I guess this is Good  Bye. 
4 years of college life. :)
4 years of wasted time
4 years of life
4 years of struggling, sufferings and fighting. 
4 years of learning. 

It's funny i can't really feel sad. 
or happy. 
I definitely feel relieved.  

Though, I will miss my friends. My dear dear friends. 
I've never imagine we would separate. 
My friends, they are part of my life.
a huge part of the tremendous 4 years of far away from home. 

The beers we drank 
the song we sang
the tears we cried
the streets we walked
the talked we talked.

ends.

I mean we will still see each other again, but it certainly will be a lot different. 
Sad to say, i've never done anything meaningful, wonderful, adventurous, mind blowing.
My college life is not as colorful that i've imagined years back.

It's not that simple. There's a thing call reality. 
and man, he is cruel. and there's another thing called laziness and Yoke. 
so, yeah. 

I was once naive and stupid. 
Yet. I'm still a dreamer. 

"I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed." - Fantine 

760 days of us

His first time at Ben's, pavlova birthday cake 

It's raining again. 
It was raining when he arrived. it's raining when he was gone. 

yesterday was the best 23rd that we have ever had. 
bought cool Everlast kicks for his 22nd birthday.
Had a fantastic Arabian night
enjoyed our first earth hour at KLCC. 
when the lights goes off. 
we kissed. 
he cured my cracked lips. 

i love making him birthday cards. It's like a thing i'll do every year. 


I finished my last semester in Tar college. 
Damn, i can't believe i am actually going to UK.
i mean 4 years of painstaking journey
pufff gone. 
4 more days i will be getting my offer letter to Sheffield Hallam University. 
It this crazy or what?!
I guess i will miss most of my friends.
college life sucks, however, there's still some fun bit. 
silly things that we did, cheated during quizzes, helping each other, gossiping, having lunch together everyday,  the favorite Asian entertainment - KARAOK  
talked about guys, watched porn together, get drunk. 
deep down, i kinda wish he were in every part of it.
  
we talked about our future, what will it be like after UK. 
we will never be bored with each other, i love being with him even when we have nothing to talk about.
we just love having each other around. 

Is he the one? I don't know. 
can he not be the one that got away.
Imagine life without him. 
I am so used to his body temperature, his breath, the way we joke.

Assignments, eat, drink, joke, play, watch movies, smoke, eat, eat, eat, gossip, eat
is all I did for this semester. 
Nothing much to update.
Get excited, be ready for my vlogs and posts from UK :)


i love old old songs.
their lyrics and melody are so different, there's nothing like that not in the world today.
what would be our song?



-love, infinity-