Monday 5 November 2012

Alpha and Omega

the first and the last.

rainy days always have an indescribable effect on me.
i love to write during rainy days, when the weather is cold, keeps my mind clear and calm.

where to begin? well, this post is actually a collection of my feelings.
last month was quite relax and somehow intense.

I love the fact that my house is always the place that i think of during the moments of darkness.
time certainly flies. no matter how hard i wish and pray that he could stay a little bit longer. Time will still pull us apart again.
this time. maybe even further.

i love you to the moon and back.
No matter how much or how intense our arguments were, no matter how angry I am. I still love you. No matter what.
I know you feel the same too.
I am a difficult and stubborn girl.
I am sometimes mean, and always depend on you to do most of the things. I am demanding and never satisfied, never grateful for everything and anything.

I really love that you could put up with me and my ugliest side.
You are the only one that makes me feel beautiful and confident, you seems to see the best in me. You tried, oh you tired to keep my spirits up and keep me going.

I got so used to you. the fact that we are going to be apart again just unbearable.
no matter how hard or how much i cry, the fact is still the fact.
i just wish we could both run away.

this empty room is filled with memories that means the whole world to me.
I remember you'd hug me whenever i cried watching movies. You'd always make me smile after that.
You and your silly personality, our inside jokes. :(
You are smart and so talented in your own way. I wish that they can just see it all.
a guy that can actually put up with their daughter and their sister. Love her as much as they love her.

He is beautiful inside out.
I am sorry for all the hateful, hurtful, evil words that I've said.
Yes I do. I do hope that you are my Alpha and Omega.

I'll need to keep my chin up. suck it all in! Focus!
patience, time and effort!
to lose weight, my studies and also maintain our relationship no matter how hard it is.

-come on baby we'r gonna fly away from here.-