Kekasih Gelap

I jumped out of bed, kicked off my blanked and ran to get my laptop for this post.

I was thinking of you. No to be honest, I think of you often.
It started with a cute comment then sort of became this flirting game between us.

I think of you. Oh, that laugh of yours it radiates like sun shine.
When I said my prince charming is probably stoned somewhere, finding his way to me.
You said it might be you.
The moment you responded when i said good morning prince charming
and us flirting all day long is fun.

First time meeting you, even though you were super late but with a very good forgivable reason.
We clicked completely, I can tell from your smile and the way we talked.
Your eyes twinkles every time i giggle at your jokes.
The night air flowing through us on top of the hill, looking down at the city lights.
I can't stop staring at your luscious lips and again your contagious laugh.

fact that we hang out till dawn and still have so much to talk about.
fact that you impressed me, seems effortless even though you said you tried to be cool not to screw up.
I love it when i don't need to pretend in front of you, being me, spontaneous.
Our stupid jokes and hanging out with you is the best.
Us talking about your scars and my boring ass stories.

Our first kiss, for me was electrifying, that spark that i was desperately trying to feel from all the other guys.
I felt it with you, it felt right, I never thought that I would feel sparks again after Jay.
We both know this is how far we can be because, consequences.
We have to stick to the plan. Our plan.

I love spending time doing nothing with you.
You are sometimes the right amount of crazy i need. turns me on and gets me going.
It's the vibe you give, takes some of real life issues and pressure off.
little escape for me. hope it is to you too.
either way, I enjoy this effortless "relationship" we have.
I won't ask for anything more. This is good enough for me.
This is fun because it is the way it is and nobody needs to know you.

I cherish the fact that you acknowledge one day, we might fall for each other.
but honey, reality sucks. The world does not revolve around us.
maybe in a parallel universe we are probably be super chill, happy together and we don't need to hide whatever this is.
but this is how far it goes. sticking to the plan is the best for you and i.
I like you, I do despite whatever selfish reasons that we are doing this. I like you.
I like you because this is fun. I hope you like me because this is fun.
and she is a very lucky girl. I am sorry for not wanting to care.

-I meant it when i said I would go for you if you were single.-