makes me think~

i love to think~
not really thinking though.. more to day dreaming.. lol~
despite being busy everyday but i will still give myself atleast a second or two..
just to make my mind drift to a far distance..

or is it maybe after i read the book mr.darcy and me~
hmmm
i m always into old fasion and vintage..
i love antique... i love the time when men were more honest.. reliable and charming :D
those were the days when people really know the true meaning of LOVE..

i studied teenagers or even adults now a days they dont really know the meaning of undying love and helplessly devoted to someone(LOL i said it as thought i know)
to be honest.. i happen to have some oppinion about love...

for me love is something unconditional..
i mean u can love someone unconditionally (like me to my parents and vice versa :D)
u can fall in love so deeply with a person even when everybody's talking bad things about him/her.. you r deaf.. love blocks every bad thing that is going into you~
and when u r in love.. u r really devoted to that someone..
everything about that person seems to be important to you..
even the tiniest bit of all~

love is undying.. and there wont be a expiery date...
love is so not the type of CINTA KONTRACK(omg it's so damn childish)
i personally.. wont and cant accept that kind of.. JOKE???

hmmmm.. i m really sick of doing things that i m doing now..
i hope to take jean austin's advice...
i m trying.. really hard..
hmmmmm

Perasaan ku

perasaan ku??
yeah yeahh i know i am a girl with lots of feelings~
hehehehe


in Terengganu.. my home town.. the place where i were brought up.. i am sorry that i had to leaf to another state that is familiar yet so new to me..
the people here are totally different. different in the sense that their thoughts and life style and attitudes..

i remembered well.. in my mind.. Chinese Malay and Indian lived together as one in my small town.. but i though that they would be closer in the big city~
but i soon found out that i was so wrong...
i cant believe that what i am seeing .. hearing or even experiencing here..

i just dont understand y?
i always thought that we are ONE.. i mean.. where is perpaduan kaum?? where is budi bahasa??
where is all the nilai nilai murni???!!!!

OMG! i know that i am not a budi bahasa tyoe or person but.. this is far worse that i had imagine~

how can this happen??
when are we going to achieve 2020??
i am so so sooooo worried that 13may might happen again~
i am really afraid..the kind of fear that i cant explain..
the fear of loosing my love ones and my friends of different race and religion...

i cant bare it anymore~
everything seems to be ok~
the truth is far worse...

more illustration on next blog.. bila inspirasi ku datang! :D

11 JULY

what's so special about THE DAY??
i dont know..

it's just somebody's birthday~
lol

actually... it's not just somebody~
it's HIM!
that guy~
that seems so familiar yet so unfamiliar to me..
a phase of growing..
a little crush~

a cute guy that i had knock myself onto so hard till i was hurt all over~
i promise myself i will always remember him~
but i guess i am not significant~ just a tiny dust in his eyes~

i love his smile and still do..although i cant look at him carefully anymore
but his features are all hand craft in my head~
it's difficult for to even forget his birthday~

i am just a nonsense just a lunatic to him~
but dose he know that he means so much to me...
i just dont know why~~

it's a week after his birthday~

happy birthday~ the guy beside the window~

RM3

can u buy a heart with RM3??

hmm i really dont know what to say bout this..

am i a hypocryte?

am i money minded..

argghhh!! i can believe he bought my heart by using 1 and almost 2 years of time and rm3.. lol

but i am still cnfused.. he bought my heart by phone calls.. and almost 2 months.. hahahahah

man i am crazy~

WORDS

are the words the truth?
the beautiful words..
so sweet and suiting flowing into my ear.
why cant you just tell me?
or it's my fault that i m blinded...

i am really happy that u said u wish that i were at your house.. and we can talk face to face
i am really happy that u called me
i am really happy that u dont mind
i am really happy that u r what u r now...
or would u change?

i am also happy that i am far away from u cuz i know u missed me :)
i dont know am i the one... but sometimes i hope that i am the only one
i wonder what u talked about with her..
i wonder do u still like her?
i hope that u realised.
i hope that u call me everyday
i hope that the phone bill is free and we would talk day n night

i love the way u talk to me
i love your laughter although i can just hear them

i wish to see u but not your picture
i hate to quarrel with u
i dont wanna make u mad
and i hope u wont ever break my heart again.

i hope i can be loyal and like u with all my heart but no
i realised and awaken when u last hurt me..
and i cant really go back to who i was cuz i find the fun and pleasure being who i am

cuz i am in love with both of u...
i hate telling u lies that u dont even realised.
i am truly sorry..
for me this is just... a game.. a game that i had lost badly but rebuilding it with new strategies.
i hope that u forgive me.
i hope to get both of u.
as if i can~


am i crazy for wrintng these?
i dont know.. it's just what i feel...

H1N1

what the hell man~
what's with the h1n1??

sick of it!
sick of wearing mask
it's damn hot! and a person like me.. sweat like hell wearing it.. huhuu
but prevention is better than cure... right???

but some of the people here..
i mean thoes jerks!
laughing and teasing people that r wearing mask.
what r u trying to prove?
u r not afraid? u r stupid? u r childish? go eat my shoe!!!
damn i hate them...
lol

college life's so far so good.. i dont really have any BIG trouble yet..
but i really do worry bout the flu though~
trying my best to prevent it~ :)

terengganu it still the best! :D
i miss my family so much! huhu
and my friends
y must we be appart??
i really do miss u..
when can we meet again???

although u would call me once in a while.. but there's no 3G here.. lol
i enjoy talking face to face with you~
i really regreted not taking picture with u at the bus stand
and really thank you 4 being there with me...
i think i am falling.. slowly.. into..... lol

wokay3.. enough~
that's privet hahahahaha

call me more ok! some times i do get bored here u know... and stress out..
i suddenly miss ur support and your smile..
i miss the way u give 2 thumbs up when ever i finish a presentation..
i miss it when u look at me
i miss it when we would joke and talk during klas kenegaraan and all
i miss you!

huhuuu i miss gossiping with u in I-3
i miss the laughter
i miss the cat walk and the silly jokes..
i miss getting roll call and getting punish
i miss running with u all and eating together..

I MISS MISS MISS!!! i am going crazy!! help anyone??

JAPANESE!

SUSHII

SEDAP AHH!!!

cute little jelly

clammm

SUSHIII

ohhh yeahh aahaaa
hehee
i really enjoyed myself in KL!
with my room mate Stella from Sarawak!

she is kinda cool
u know~ the kind who know how to enjoy life hahaha
well she brought me and my floor mate ling fang~
to a super duper Japanese buffet! at shasaki restron
the food was damn nice i'hv never seen so much food before in my whole life
and i cant even finish i was so full till my whole stomach bloated!
wooooow!
this is the life~
i dint even get to try all of the food!
i was tooo toooo much! hahaha
but the price was ermm hahaha
about rm50 per person~

it is ok?? :P
but i really do enjoy it!
hope that stella would bring me there again next time~hehehe

Lecture Hall

HELLUUUU

this is my 3rd week in college..

:))

so far so good!

sure i met some new friends

and they r nice to me huhuu

i started co-co today

guess what i register 4???

hehehehe

i took gym workout!

OOHHHYEAHHH ahhhhaaa

cool???

can lose weight!

hahahahahaha

the lectures r ok..

i think i can get understand most of the subject and all

have to be really hard woking here

have to finish tutorial home work huhuu

and i wanna settle my ptptn 1st~

WORK WORK WORK~

always busy and rushing~

:((

wokay got to go~ enjoy the pictures :P

COLLEGE LIFE

fuhhhhhhhhh
hehehe
well i m sitting under the fan
in the cafeteria near my hostel~
lol

using my BRAND NEW LAP TOP wuuuhuuu
thanks dad i love u so much!!! :)

heeeeee
just got it 2nights ago~

wokay gonna start my college story~
ermhhh
college i so very different from secondary school
MORE FREEDOM!
BUT!
u have to do everything yourself

1.buy food
2.go pay fees
3.find ur lecture hall
4.lecture notes
5.wash n dry ur shirts
6.homework
7.cocuriculum
8.ur health

and many2 more..
kinda lazy to write n my lap top's battery is running low..
hehehe

i love my friends here..
but i miss my friends back home terribally~
:((
i miss PLKN
i miss everything about it!

my heart is scraming to go back~
but i cant!
hmmmm
so much for me

i really cant do it without god!
i m glad that he is always here
and always answring my prayers and guiding me
step by step!
:D

that's all i guess..
c u soon ELI! :-*

NEW MOON NEW LIFE

greetings~
hehe
hello i m yoke~

i guess u all already forget me since i never updated my blog since i went to PLKN~
waooo it's really a unforgetable time~
i dont think i would be able to erase it from my memory~

it was the hilight of my youth!
i felt "YOUNG" hahahaha
no i mean i really do feel good there~

and now~
after 1and a half month of millitary tranning~
sad that didnt get to finish the tranning~
but i have more important part of my life to proceed~
i m now i the ICCT room of TAR College setapak, KL~
as a busniness student~
diploma banking and finace~
hehehe

i was quite lonely and sad at the begining~ but
i met new friends!
and i m glad to have them~
:)
currently staying in the hostel!
i had to work really hard in my studies and try to adapt my new life here!
i really need support from u guys!
and thanks for reading my blog~

ILYSM! i miss you all very very much!!!

BAD news for me

:(
i was really disappointed with my results..
too ashamed to even tell anyone~
it's unexpected in a bad way~

hmm but what to do~
maybe i didn't do good enough~
but honestly i really tried my best
i don't want to disappoint the people that i love~

but i guess i failed!
i m a failure
i hope everyone is happy with their results
sorry no pictures taken(broken camera)
and i dint have the mood.

GOOD LUCK in future
in choosing course
n college!!

12/3/2009

HELL YEAH!
we r gonna get our SPM result soon!!
that's day after tomorrow!

OMG i really dont know how am i gonna face everything~
well i just hope the very best to everyone!!

GOOD LUCK!

after taking the result..
some of our are leaving KT~
some of us are going PLKN~
so i s bye bye everyone

that's really sad~
hmm no matter where we r~
i m glad that we used to be in the same class :))
LOVE you all so much!!!
hope to keep in touch!!

TAGGED by JING

• 7 facts about YIIYOKE?

1. Fun is my middle name?


2. once u make me hate you and that's the end of it.


3. I love playing my guitar though i m not that good yet.


4. I am really sensitive(not hyper though)


5. I love writing. i express my feelings through writing


6. I love taking pictures especially the most natural moment without posing cuz for me that's the most beautiful moment.


7. I love art.

• 6 unspectacular quirks of YIIYOKE?

1. I can like you very much but i can also hate you.


2. I love doing crazy stuff :p


3. I hate politics!


4. once i fall in love i can fall really deep. heeee


5. I have my own explanation for Shakespeare's poem


6. I always over react! hahaa

I am too lazy to tagg anyone~ lol

JING JING tagged me! :))