love

Love.. what is love??

i was so mad at myself.. for choosing that topic to talk about~

i really don't know why though~

i cant rmmber a thing when i went out there..


i guess you really took a part of me when left~

seriously~
:(

hmmmmm love~

love love love

i m love drunk~~~
i guess u prefer the old than new~ :)

it's ok! i am ok! we are ok!!!
happy everyday!! :D

Today

Today~
i just wanna talk about my day..

it's juat another ordinary day..
going to lectures and tutorials..

despite the face that i forgot to bring my wallet and i woke up really late..
i have class at 10.30am but i woke up 10.10.. wooow!

not bad..

ok i'll just jump to the main point..

i just can believe he did this to us..
i mean ok we r friends.. and i really do treat him as my friend but what's wrong when i wanna borrow his book to phtostate???

i mean i know that the book i expansive but.. hey we r friends and.

erhhh i was like speechless..
it's ok though.. and now we know how's he like..
the real him..

that's all.. i will still treat him as my friend.. but keep some distance..
to protect myself.. huuuuuuu..

i'm leaving on an aeroplane

hey guys..
i m going back to KL tomorrow morning..

probabbly will reach about 10am.. i guess not sure..

DAMN i sure have fun this 3 weeks! ;)
ate tons of fruits and healthy food.. i even went to the place i miss the most :) THE BEACH!
awwwww i love the sound of the wave......

hmmmm i m gonna miss it all.. and i m also vry excited to go back cuz i m taking a flight!
the best thing is i m ALONE! lol

i just have to get used to it....
guys just wish me luck in everthing~
and i mean it! WISH ME LUCK!

i really hope that i dont fail any of my exams.. hmmmmm

ok what ever.. got to go~

ILYSM! :D
i really do!

Tanpa

Tanpa kamu aku tido tak lena
makan tak knyang
mandi tak basah
kentut tak bau
isap rokok xkau asap
manis tak rse manis
pahit tak rase pahit
msam xrse msam
msin rase manis

hitam mcm putih
putih pulak jadi pink~~~

tngok ape yg tjdi pda sy tanpa kamu???????

hahahahahahahahahaha

it's just for fun~ ;)

ILYSM! heeeeeeeee

October

This is the 1st day of the month.. ;)
obviously..

and 4 more days and i m gonna go back to kl..
a place that i love and hate..

I HATE YOU! and i LOVE YOU!
=.=lll

i dont know what am i crapping about but i hope thoes who undestands me undestand.. haha
and i am also a liitle bit closer to him ;)

u know u is where he should be now and i m going to be where i should be..

hope to meet him.. damn i dint get to meet him when we were in Kt.. that sucks~
i guess he's bz with his friends and me with mine..

what ever it's no big deal~
cant wait to go see my lovely friends.. and cant wait to face anything that i should be facing.. hope god's with me.. Amen..

25/10/09

He is my super No.1

The freaking lump is officially out of my chest :)

well i did it nervously.. damn! how could someone be so cool with it!!
like he's so used to it??

but no answer were given YET! so we r still friends i really hope this wont affect anything~ hehehe

Itu dia
Lelaki yg buat ku jatuh cinta
Orang yg snagt istimewa untk ku
V r still friends..
Entahlah bile kite bleh bhagia
Untk mnjalani hdup brsama
Forever forever
And forever
Is it possible??
Z hope so :)

Damn i can be the second Shakespeare! hahaha

You

;) Freaking imprinted!

fuhhhh.. i think i will do it!
i mean no matter what i just wanna get that lump out of my chest!
what ever your answer or reaction is i m going to vomit it out!

i think we r mature enough to think over it!
no matter what happens later
we r still the same as before :)

go yoke! :D

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

woow i cant believe it's another year again :)

since last year~

well i hope to spend my time with my friends...

maaf zahir batin!

pose penoh xehhh???

hahahahahhaaaa

slamat2 :)

August Rush~ NO RUSH

i changed my mind..
i mean not chicked out~

but
i think it's not the right time.. to do what i am planning~
i start to wonder.. i really feel that way or i think ii should feel that way~

i dont know..
my friends...
they disagree...

but i am head over toes..
hmmm
insane.. but.. not all of them disagree though~
some of them even support me~
but wheni get back home..
and with more time to think~

i thought...

i can wait~
i mean it's not the right time..
altohough the feeling is like bursting out..

but~
hmmmm

maybe he's not the one for me.
and i m not the one for him..

maybe i m born not to have any one...

u know fat soul like me. :)
i guess i m just making a fool of myself infront of others..
i m just a laughing stock~

hahahaha
isn't it funny?

but it's the fact.. the world is cruel.. it even rimes~
perfect compeptition i'll just have to take it~

so no rushing~

Confession of the heart

I am glab to be at home now..

only God knows how much i miss home..



:)

hmmm what's my confession?

after watching final destination.. haha i know i know..
i think that humans r so tiny and weak~ we cant fight destiny, the way we die.. how old we will live..how we look.. wrinkles.. and many many more

but we humans r vry bold! we though that we can handle everything.. we can control the world and the things happening..

but the fact is we are still way behind and weak to take control~

we dont know how where when we will die..
life's short.. our very first destination is our final destination..

dont you think so??
i mean after we r born we have to die..
what's the purpose to be born if we have to die???

haha! that's when i realized that everyone is born with a mission..
and after the mission is accomplished we eventually die...

this is just my theory though..

that's why after watching that movie.. i decided to live life to the fullest.. like my best friend used to say :D

i will complete my mission and die peacefully..
i hope so~
we dont know what will happen next..

today i maybe alive but we will never know if tomorrow never comes....

that's y i will try hard to do the best in everything.. to live :)
my life's not all about study.. life's all about fun! EVEN God wants us to have fun!
do you know that?
so i am gonna say it out after all..
i am prepared~

fuuuuhhhhhh i hope so! hehe

hope u enjoy reading :)
it's getting really late and there's a storm coming.. so i better go off to bed~

night :)

deeper conversation.

Not as delicious as they look ;P
I love you guys!!!

18?
yeah i am indeed 18 now..
lol

it was so different to be far from home.. and even celebrating my 1st birthday at a place that don't seem to be familiar.
with the people that i am going to be close with for quite sometime..

lol
18 birthday.. i was really fun and surprising despite the face that i am born on the national day.. but who cares??

no one.. i am just a soul like everyone else..
no different~

but i am really glad and happy to know the people around me..
they make me feel so like a family..

i really wish not to end this closed linked relationship cuz i know i began to love them..

18 seem old to me.. i dont know why but i just feel old.. i wonder..
well i cant write long cuz i am not using my laptop now..
more update later plus pictures! :D

Dreams

Why do we dream??
i dont really understand though..

i mean dreams always make me uncomfortable with myself..
every night before i close my eyes.. i pray that i dream about u..

but what do i get.. things that i dont expect.. things that i dont want to even think about...

i was so busy this few days.. i had no time to relax.. to take a ddep breath.. to smell.. to DREAM

it's good sometimes to dream but dont be too carried away.. "u can dream but dont make dream ur master" a poem from a dad to his son.. i forgot the title but it's in my form5 literatutre..

:)

i was really dissapointed and even mad at few things last few weeks i wanted to just post it..
but that stupid connecttion in my hostel really kills me.. i was so frustrated that i dont even want to touch my laptop.
i want to just throw everything away~

obviously it's just a kind of emotion.. i wont.. lol~

i am really happy that my dad came today.. i always wanted to eat with him :D especially when i am so far away~ i do miss my family.. my house :(

YOKE sabar laaa nehhh!!!!! brape minggu lagi leh balik!!!!
huhuuu

No shining stars in Kuala Lumpur

ask your self before u proceed reading~ :)

do read while playing what about now-daughtry
is there any stars in KL? NO~

i mean kids that grow up in KL can hardly see stars all they can see in the night sky is just

vivid aeroplane or helicopter's light and they some times mistaken them as stars! lol

and i would like~ ermmhh.. stars wont move that fast..



what i mean is city kids are different.. they are not that close to nature.

and sometimes they really get on my nerve~

no more moral values no more humanity.. zero!

why???

what happen to the education???

FAIL man!!!!

how can it turn out to be like this??

i though we r suppose to live together as one..

nothing to do with our religion or race or skin colour ohhhh who cares..

i am just a lonely blogger that no body really notice my post even..

so why bother...