Lunch

Today.

I had the best lunch in so many years.

i never thought that will actually happen.

although it's simple. but with you. it's the best :)

i am a big eater. but it's weird that i was really full.

and i can't stop laughing.

you said. you like to see the way i eat.

it's funny.

i am like that because, it's the way you always treat me.

you always make me feels like the luckiest girl alive.

Lies. no!

i am not that good in lying.

i hate to lie.

i am sorry.

confused. indeed i am.

what should i do?

can God give me answer?

i seriously love what you done for me.

to You and to you.

to YOU ALL.

it's not that i don't love you all. but, i love you too.

what it means by being happy one second and sad the minute when people finds out?

i am really grateful mum. really.

i love you. and please believe me.

i don't mean to lie.

you are the best mum. i don't want to risk losing you.

but please. just give us time.

what should i do to get you to trust me?

everything seems impossible.

how can i love another and not hurting another?

my priorities. i am clear of it.

and i am not messing with my studies.

i try hard.

just to make you all proud.

but. as always, i am the black sheep of the family.

-Help me. Anyone-