kindness makes me SMILE

"POP!" :)

helllooo~ and good evening.

I am here to tell you a story about Miss Yoke.

One day, she went out to study with her friends. while waiting for them. she remember that she left only a few sens (her phone credit) so she walked to the store to topup rm10.

making her wallet thin. she only left rm10 now.

unfortunately, she had to key in her number in the sales person's phone.

she was sure that the number is correct. and she gave the phone n money back to the sales person.

after a while. she felt weird, "what is taking so long for the money to be transfered?" she asked herself..

then she walk to the counter again asking..

the lady showed her the number and "WTF" she felt like hitting herself hard on the wall.

she key in the wrong number. and bad news is... it cannot be canceled.

she felt sad and depressed. "why oohhh why bad things keep happening"

then her friend came.

they went to MC d to study~

before that, with 0.00001% of hope. yoke sms that number, telling about the accident.

no reply. she prayed.. hoping that god would answer her prayers.

still no reply.

UNTIL LAST night~ a mysterious sms came in..

saying sorry that he/her is busy, sorry for the late reply~ and waaalllllaaahhh!!

rm10 in return!!

OHH YEAH!! she thanked that person!

he/her must be an angle!!!!

conclusion is... yoke got back her rm10 and live happily as usual~ :)

the moral of this story is.. to do good to others. you make them smile and happy.

to let them know that there's still hope and humanity and love in this society :)

i hope you love the story!

and to the mysterious person out there if you happen to read my blog (=.=ll as if) i wanna thank you again! I LOVE YOU! :P

2.22AM

what am i doing? awake in this hour of time?? am i sleep walking??

NO~ i m sitting with my friends. in the hostel canteen~

to work on my work good assignment and also studying for my exam~ which is in 3 more days.

hmmm

i can't wait for Chinese new year!

i wan't ANG PAU and also to celebrate and be together with my familiessss :)

ILYSM!!

well, sometimes people are not what you think they are, like i always say~

he may be good looking and good in everything and seems to be the mr.perfect but~

he has his own secret.

i won't wanna know.

so i don't wanna care.. live my life.. :)

Lesson to be learn

Hey~ glad to say that i am alive :P

it's been hard for me this few days. with my phone and up coming final exam~

but today something caught my eyes.

it's a post at facebook from a pastor.

God have His time. He planed everything for us and know exactly what we needed.

well, we have to be patient and wait for the time to come :)

i hope to be a patient person hehe

ermm.. i really wanna thanks all my friends for being there with me when my phone got stolen. Ah qian and Chui Peng~ their help means a lot to me.

and also other seniors as well.

and i also wanna thank Shahrul Faiz (hahahaha sound familiar right) yeah

my super n0.1 :)

he kinda help me find out that, the thief that fucking ass hole is still using both my numbers!

and he also helped me scold that low life buy sending cursing messages :) i am happy because he actually felt angry. feels like i m floating in the air. he actually cares about me :D and remembers almost everything that i told him~

SWEET! I am really lucky to know him and to like him!

it's not that i fall in love with him again.

it's just... i don't know how to describe that feeling LOL!

Ok.. i'll make it simple by saying that he is my SUPER n0.1! :)

i wanna apologize to my parents.

I am sorry for what i'hv done. Thanks for forgiving me :)

Thanks to my aunt for lending me her old Samsung :)

i like it!

let this be a lesson for everyone. Glad that i kept my wallet in my pocket~ that save a lot of trouble!

guess that i thanked everyone. sorry if i missed out but please remember that i really do appreciate your help!

That's what Friends are for :)

IT'S A HE!

lost my phone

hey, i lost all my phones and numbers so no body can contact me now.

will inform u all if i got my new number.

actually i feel really sad

i felt that i really let my parents down.

some kinda curse is following me i guess so many bad things happen..

i just don't know what to say~

sorry mum n dad i don't mean to disappoint you guys. sorry~

no more going out next time.

i m gonna stay in hostel.

i lost my phone in sungei wang.

let this be a punishment for me. and a lesson to be learn for everyone.

not in writing mood now.

bye

2010

Happy new Year

2010

SEE MING HAW

Went to zoo the next day

hey.. Happy new YeAR~~!

HAHAHA will upload more lonely 2010 new year pics later..

writing this blog in my friend's room near TBR :)

love them!!!

1st time spending new year with my friends.. kinda cool though last night! hahaha
we were like girls gone wild!!
honking crazily on the street!! lol

Went to zoo the next day!
love it..
well i hope that 2010 will be a better year!
wish me luck
wish me love
wish me better life
wish me to be a better person! :)
same to u all tooo ;p

to forever and always

cheers..

Joy to the world the lord is come :)

and other happy events to celebrate =.=ll

ok~

sorry everyone i don't have sufficient funds in my phone to send or reply Christmas sms..

so sorry~

so now i wanna wish everyone MERRYYYYY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

praise the lord!!

sad that i cnt be in KT.. in AJPC to celebrate..

i miss them a lot~

hope that they still remember me lol~

i'hv been like this invisible person trying to be visible again~

sometimes i think that i am trying too hard

and people are starting to forget and ignore me.

i dont mean anything, but that's just my thoughts.

and i just found out that guys kinda like girls that talk less.

weird~

nah i wont FORCE myself to be who i am not ;p

kool~

may 3 of them be happy and together forever

i will always love the little one, although i dont know who he/she is yet but :) i kinda already like you!!

so grow up! and be a good person! may god bless you with everything good in this world. all the beauty and kindness belong to you~

let all the evil and darkness go far away.

grow up.. be a good person little one :)

expect the best in life whenever life gets hard~

you have your love ones waiting :)

and dont keep your auntiesssss to be waiting :D

lol i feel old~ hahaha

time can beat any sportsmen in speed~

it's fast.. way tooooo fast~

final examination will be near soon~ and honestly i hope that i will get pass~

i dont wanna fail

i dont know how to cope with FOA anymore

i m so sorry mom n dad~

i really do wanna make u all proud!

but i dont know y every time i see a SLR.. i go depress and blaming myself for being in DBF.

but it's too late to do anything now~ i'll live with it.

and guys i wanna intro my new friends to you all~ :D

WELCOME DBF2~!

Neglect

i was just surfing the net and suddenly i came across a site that i had been negleting it for 2 years!! lol

i used to surf the web everyday lastime. it's called yahoo Q&A i love that site very much!
and today i dont know what came into me. i just bump in it and started to answer and ask question~

i love it. think i will continue.. u know to catch up~ :)
what a day today~
got myself a spirurina instant cereal and some oat cruhch to bite.. and that's lunch~ :D

enjoy my new year shopping alot! hahahaha

kinda think i am a big spender ;p

thanks mum and dad! i love u miss u!

14/12/2009 Hari yang indah

this is a very special day! for a special person to be brought by god to this world~

that person~ is flawless :)

she is my mummy!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

although your age is increasing but your beauty remais :)

sad that i wasn't there to celebrate :(

we love you from the bottom of our hearts :D

although we always make you mad which i have no idea why~

hmmm

but we dont really mean to.. huhuuu lost in communication sometimes?? hehehe

we just want to say thakans a ZILLON to bring us up :)

we r glad and proud plus really3 lucky! to have u as our mother!!

all i want to say is.. relax lay back take a deep breath.. we have all grown up :) and i hope that i made u proud this 18 years.. although i know i didnt really.. huhu

hmmmm u r my guardian angle..

always there for me..

I LOVE YOU :)

Forbidden Love

Forbidden~
hmmm as u all know i always have a 'THING' for Malay guys~ hahahahahaha

yeahh~
i know it requires alot of sacrifice to actually be with the one i love.
but i didnt know it would be that terrifying after i read a book called forbidden love. i got it randomly in my library~ ;p
it's about a love story.. Christian and Muslim~ Cool??!!
anything familiar to u?? hahahahaha

it's kinda like Malay and Chinese in Malaysia~
but our rules are not as strik as in Jordan, Arab~ grateful about it! i really cant imagine being tied up like the Arabian woman~
i would go crazy.. even for half a day~ damn!!!

by the way~ this story really struck my hard~ it's like BAMMM!!! something hit hard on my head~
i never really realised what i had brought myself into.. i mean having that 'thing' for Malay guys..
it's not really "forbidden" in Malaysia. but i didnt consider the consequences..
=.=lll i dont know what am i thinking.. well it's not my fault that i am attracted to them. i just cant control myself..

i tried really hard to like Chinese guys ok!
i really do!
but i cant find anything that interest me.. they r stereotype.. the hair style.. the dressing.. the thinking.. the way they talk~ they way they walk~
i dont seem to feel that i belong to any of the categories though~
sometimes i feel like.. i cant fit in~ like i dont belong here... i feel like i am all alone in this empty hollow world.
where am i????

i am lost totally~
hmm but really do enjoying reading the book~ :) although i m not finish yet~ hahaha
this book also talks about women's right!!
yeahh imagine if i were born in Arab~ i have no rights to do anything~
i had to listen to MEN!! that's so not me..
i dont really 'obey' anyone.. hahahahahaha and u want me to be controlled by Men??

hahahahahaha no way~
that's not my Principe of life at all~
and being controlled is no life at all~

well, for me. if i really love someone.. and that someone loves me too~
and if and only if we r not from the same religion i would run away with him~
to a place that we can live freely..
but i dont think my dad would stab 12 times in my chest just like the girl in the book when her father found out that she was dating a christian guy~ and even called her a whore..

ewwww they didnt even fuck??
hmmm
i came to realised that. i am an alien. from out of space. here to observe humans. or am i just a weirdo myself??? I DONT KNOW!

but i do know something.
i am waiting for a prince.. to save me. from everything.. mybe another alien of my own kind. i dont know..

can i sat i leave it all to god??
no~ cuz i dont think god would ever give me such guy~ so there's no use to pray for it.
it will never happen~
i am always dreaming..

forever is.. forever will..

dear god. i do love you~ and i hope that you show me some signs..
i've been praying so hard that.. sometimes i feel like giving up~
please dont let me do that..
please let my faith say strong with you!
Please..
in the name of god i ask for your guidance and protection.. Amen

101

heeeeee celebrate the blog! it's the 101 post!

COOL~

hidup aku tidak sempurna.
aku bagai hidup dalam neraka~

dalam bilik yang busuk, hapak.. dan bau coli busuk~
dengan orang yang aku harapkan dia mati~

alagkah baik jika aku tiada disini~
kalau nasib aku baik~

tetapi semua itu tidak mungkin terjadi~
di mana putera ku??
aku bukan superwoman
walaupun aku gagoh perkasa..
tapi aku betul2 tidak boleh tahan dengan keadaan sekarang.

aku ingin sangat ade seseorang menghulurkan tangan dan bawa ku lari daripada semua ini!
aku tak kisah ke mana orang itu nak bawa aku~ janji aku keluar dari neraka ini~

aku hampir tumbang~
Tolong aku???

where is my prince to save me from hell~

-101 middle finger to bitchy witch-

The Ugly Truth

:)

people hate to know the truth.
why?? because they r afraid.. afraid that what they thought was actually their imagination.
It was not what it really was.

since people hate to know the truth, they learnt to fake~
yeahhh fake everything

don't be surprise that if one day you found out that you husband was not the guy you used to date.
althought they might be physically identical but their character maybe be totally different. and that's the ugly truth that leads to divorse.

same as guys. who love hot sexy skinny bitch~ one day you will realised that she is not the one you love. Padan muke! hahahahaha

why r girls now a day killing themself to be skinny??
simple just to impress dumb GUYS! ass hole~

and guys don't fall in love.
they fall in LUST!
all they think about is to 'pop' the cherry!
dont you girls realise?? they like you because of your body and not who you really r~
they dont see it if u r more beautiful inside.. all they think about is how you make them feel good in bed!
once they got you.. they treat you like.. i dont know.. rubbish??

i know i am fat, bitch! unfortunatly i m not fake like those skinny bitch out there~
yeah i am so stupid that i actually thought that i would find a guy that like me for who i am~

nahhh i was stupid.. guys love skinny faking fucking bitch~
guys won't like me, even my own father said that :)

yeahhh~ what i m is not important. how i live is what i prefer people to know~
i know that i m fat. but i know how fat i am. i can estimate ok~

i m fat but i wont cause earth quakes when i jump (no one in this world will)
i m fat but i wont cause the swimming pool to dry up when i jump into the pool(no one will)
I m fat but i cant swallow a cow
I m fat but i can dress nice and be pretty
i m fat but i can live a normal life
I m fat but i have feelings
don't you ever realise??
I m fat but i got to ammit that i dream of having someone to like me
I m fat with dignity
I am fat.

yeah fat people r just laughing stock to joke about~
NO you r fucking wrong~

This is my own version of the ugly truth~

who cares

who cares if they know all about them~

what's so fucking great about them

they r bunch of colour..

wat ever.. i wont be sucking dick at least and swallowing other people's tongue..

Pagi 3 December yang CERAH!

yeah, that's my new look :)
pada pagi yang mulia ini~ aku malas nak bangun.. so ponteng lecture.. huuuuuu :P



soryyyyyy



hehehe



tido lewat sangat~

english pulak~ ;)



i watched new moon with my sister on monday! damn it was nice :D

i totally fall in love again and again woth jacob black!

hahaha

i just love his abs~ and his skin tone.. and him.. and his hair ohhh i love everything about him!!!

i like edward too but i think if i were bella swan i would chose jacob~



damn bella is so lucky to have to guys protecting her..

and she's not lonely.. unlike me :)

i had to do everything alone.. lol that's ok one day my monk will come to me.. hahahaha

know why i use the word monk?? cuz i like guys with really short hair and monk don't date.. so i probably wont get the chance to find him for the rest of my life :P



and i cut my hair real short! REAL SHORT! hahaha



if cutting my hair would let me start again and forget about him.. i would like to be bold! :D

it really hurts to see my beloved beautiful messy hair being cut.. but it hurts more when i think about him

but that's old story! since i cut my hair new life begin! ok new life..



and porm nitght sucks! but luckily my muscle man was there! hahahaha

i do hope that we can be friends.. start from the basic.. but i dont think it's possible. so why bother thinking.. huuuuu



i think i am depressed.. i need inspirations.. i need a doctorrrrrrrrrrrrr! woooooooow!!!